It's Complicated...

Monday, July 1, 2013

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Life has took more twists and turns for us around here. Life is so complicated sometimes. I am not getting into any of the details but I will say the last couple of days have been some of the hardest I have ever experienced. My friend said, " I don't know why you are being so tested but you can handle it and you will be ok. " I do feel like everything is being tested right now. Thanks to a wonderful family we are working through it day by day. I don't know how to get things back to normal right now but I am going to try. My home is a complete mess.. in every way and its going to take a long while to see any kind of normalcy. If we can make it through this, we should be able to make it through anything. I am exhausted.. sad.. mad.. and confused. And no.. Scott did not cheat on me. It has more to do with the kids not my marriage. And while we try to weave our way in and out of this very complicated time, I am nervous things might never be the same. I am just going to keep praying and put one foot in front of the other until things get back to normal. I am so ready for Jackson to come back. Honestly, I am ready to be done with summer too. I really am. I think right now.. things need to be calm and quiet. I think the important thing to remember is - When you don't know what to do, do nothing - and that's where I am at. I don't want to rush and make some terrible decision. Instead, I am going to take my time and wait for the right answer to come. Everyone in my life supports Scott and I. I am so thankful to the wonderful people who have been a shoulder to cry on. They have all given the best advice and support us in every way. I seriously couldn't get through this life without them. Scott is feeling the same right now too. I am going to keep blogging because it does feel normal for me. I am going to try to keep things going and hope new better days are are in front of us. 

I hope your weekend was better than ours! I won't have a weekend in review up.. sorry..but I will be back later today! 


K Jaggers