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Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Hello friends! I know its been a long while since I have been here chatting with you. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss you all. Since my last post in the middle of October, I have been quietly trying to get life figured out. So much has happened and trying to update you of all the latest developments could take a while. :) But I'll try anyway!

So as you can see with the photo above, I am expecting a baby! I bet many of you are wondering all about it. Russell and I were just really good friends. Our relationship was merely hiking and watching movies together but we lacked so much that a relationship needs. Passion, devotion, obsession. We will always love and care for each other but I was still really lonely. Well one thing led to another and I started seeing another ex of mine from the past. This is the ex that I was with before Scott. And while our relationship was a bit crazy when we were kids; we found ourselves in a much better position this time around. Both of us have spent a lot of time trying to get our lives together and make the changes that we needed to make. Once he showed back up in my life, all the passion and love showed right back up. I don't think it ever went away really.

One thing led to another and we recently found out we are expecting a baby. I explain as much as I can in this new video....have a look.

Ryan and I have been through a lot together. A long time ago we lost a baby and its been one of the hardest things I ever had to live with. I feel now at this point in my life, with this pregnancy the universe is getting it right. I feel blessed, happy and can't wait to meet our new baby. We are older this time around and I know we both will make great parents.

I totally feel at peace with this pregnancy. I think God has great things in store for us. I know many of you have questions so the next video will be a sit down answering as many as I can. Feel free to leave them on this blog post, and any other social media where you can track me down!

I am going to be doing my best to get things back in order with youtube and this blog. I am hoping by the first of the year I will be back to my normal posting schedule bringing you along with me and this pregnancy. Plus so much more.

Thank you guys for being patient with me. I am doing great. The kids are all doing great and we are all over the moon about this new bundle of joy coming in our lives in August of next year. Thank you for all your well wishes. It has truly meant the world to me. I love you guys.

I'll see ya soon!

Saturday Ramblings

Saturday, October 8, 2016

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Happy Saturday friends! I hope you are getting along well with your day. I didn't have a chance to get Friday Letters up so I thought I would just come say hi and share a few thoughts bouncing around in my head. Hope you enjoy! 

* We woke up to much cooler weather. Yes, I know it's October but the last week or so it's been really warm. That changed overnight. I actually turned on the heat as quick as I got up. Burrrrrrrrrrr

* I worked a lot yesterday. I did a 10.5 hour shift and my body today is making me pay for it. My hip is really hurting. I feel like I am falling apart. I actually called in today just so I could rest and not hurt it more. I tossed and turned all night because of how badly it was bothering me. Might need a nap later. 

* I'm not sure if Scott ever paid the spousal support yesterday. I forgot to call the attorney. I doubt he did but it would be nice to not have to worry about the money he is suppose to pay. All I can say about it is, if he hasn't paid it, we are 100% heading back to court. And that will cost him even more money. Hopefully we can add interest, lawyers fees and garnish his wages. That's probably the only way I am going to be paid on time. It would be nice if he could just not be a loser for a short amount of time to get it done. I'm probably asking too much. 

* Gabby has been sneezing a lot and got me worried. I think the cooler weather is getting to her too. Hopefully it clears up before I have to take her to the VET. 

* I need to go to the grocery store today. I needed to go Thursday and Friday as well but that didn't happen. I am going to take a bunch of Advil and hope my hip stops hurting long enough to go. Plan on sharing the haul in a new video...stay tuned!

* I need to dye my hair. The grey is really coming out which doesn't really make me happy. Hopefully I can mark that off my to do list next week. 

* I know I am so behind on videos. I am not alone. There is only a real door on the bathroom so its complicated to say the least. I am really wanting to get into an apartment as soon as possible. 

* I bought a new blogger template but I am not sure when I will have the time to change it around. Maybe next week sometime. I thought it was time for a change. Can't wait to share it with you! 

* I am still undecided about switching jobs. I think every job has it's good and bad points. Just need to make more money. Decisions decisons. 

* I have been loving my bullet journal. I work in it daily and it really does keep my head straight. If you haven't checked out the basics I have this video sharing how it works. 

* My sister seems to do be doing just fine down in Florida. I was pretty worried about her but she keeps checking in on Facebook saying shes ok. Glad to know she is safe and sound. 

I hope you all have a great day. I am going to get cleaned up and slowly make my away around the store. Praying for a pain free day. xx

Tuesday Truths

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

 - Yesterday was really long and hard at work. When the shift is over, I just want to run right out of there. However, yesterday it took longer to get out of there and it totally sucked.

- I am not sure why the men in my life all love Ancient Aliens. I admit, sometimes it's interesting but a lot of nights, it totally puts me to sleep!

- The cooler mornings are interesting. I am up and out super early and I do really enjoy being cold. Somehow, Someway, I just have to figure out how to deal with it.

- I have been loving all the new friends I have been making. It's strange if you would have told me this would be my life a year ago, I would have thought you were crazy. But I think I am exactly where I need to be and around who I need to be around in this exact moment.

- I really miss the cats and dog. I don't think a new puppy will change that either. But when I move, I am for sure getting a dog. I feel lost without one and it's something/a goal that I am looking forward to accomplishing.

- Internet still sucks. But it doesn't really matter. I am so tired at the end of the day, I just don't feel like making videos. Hopefully I can make a few in the same day to make it easier. I just need to get to that point. Sorry.  I have reviews I need to get working on. I have so many videos in my brain. I just need a little more space....a most importantly time.

- I have a ton of voicemails to check. Yep... not something I do very often. Might want to text instead friends and family.

- I haven't been eating all that healthy but I sure have been losing weight. I have been getting in over 5 miles a day and it's paying off in how my clothes feel. I guess a divorce and new job is bound to help any woman lose weight. And I don't so much mind!

- My fitbit is still saving my life. I looooove it. I love all the information it gives me and I love the silent alarms that wake me each morning. Follow Along: Kisha Jaggers. And for those of you who have asked. Yes I wear it all the time and charge it nightly when I am in the shower.

- Ex Husband News → still a loser. Not understanding how the divorce worked out. He is suppose to pay $500 on the 1st & 15th. And this is too hard for him. Hes not making the kind of money he use to make ( idiot should and can go back into the car business anytime he wants. ), I'm a bitch, he only makes 490 a week....yada yada yada. Supposedly the stolen iphone he took from me is now off. ( Bullshit ) and he hates me. All just EXCUSES. I guess we just have to go back to court and he can cry to the judge all while paying my attorney fees. What an asshole. Sister in law still a know it all who actually doesn't know what the hell she is ever talking about. * Nothing new there.

- Russell did laundry today and I couldn't have been more grateful. I bitched, moaned and groaned most of the evening. Body hurt, tired and grumpy. Thankfully he was able to put a smile on my face along with helping out with a lot of the things that needed done around here. I swear he really has been a big help, comfort and love since all this has happened.

- I am in the middle of the woods and my worst fear right now is hitting a deer in the mornings...and evenings. I see them all the time. Makes me nervous as hell.

- I am so proud of my kids. I don't think I have been the best mom but somehow in despite of me, they are amazing. I am blessed because of them and I don't take it for granted at all.

- The bed in this camper is seriously one of the softest beds I have ever slept on. Its like a big soft feather bed that I snuggle right down in. Looking forward to my next day off when I can stay in it a little longer. But I never sleep in that late anymore and that sucks!

- The coffee this morning smells amazing. Time for another cup! I think I have an addiction to coffee at this point. Those little folgers tea bags work great for us and they actually make amazing cups of coffee.

- Gabby is in desperate need of a bath. A task I don't really want to do after a long day at work but I think it might just be happening later this evening. Or not... but sometime soon.

- Life is still a bit challenging for me. I am still settling into a life I was not expecting. I wish I would have been more prepared. For me, I just didn't plan on things ending. I really didn't. Do any of us really go into or stay in a relationship that we are sure it's going to end? No I don't think so. But it would have been smarter to have planned out some security for myself. Gotta learn from my mistakes for sure. I am not scared any longer. That's been a blessing on it's own. I am smiling more. Feeling more confident as I move through each day. I am allowed to have hard days....sad days....but I am just not allowed to give up.

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Thank you guys for stopping by. Feel free to let me know how your day is going....have a great day!  See ya soon. xx

Friday Letters

Friday, September 30, 2016

Dear God, Thank you for another week on this planet. Thank you for helping me do better. Thank you for protecting my kids. I sure hope you hear my prayers. Dear Fall, You showed up on the official day and haven't left. I am seeing leaves fall, feeling the cold temperatures. and I actually love it! Dear Romeo, I am sorry you are still stuck with him. I hope to rescue you back soon. I miss you. Dear Jackson, I can't believe how fast you are growing up. Please do good in school....you need an education! I love you. Dear Work Friends, you all make me smile and laugh so much! I love you guys! Dear Indiana, I am actually alarmed by the amount of Trump signs I keep seeing. Very disappointing. Glad we are not a battleground State.  Dear Shanna, sorry we haven't talked as much. I miss you. Just been busy! Dear Brittany, you are the cutest ever. I love you. Hope you have fun tonight! Dear Camper, I appreciate you. I truly do. You sit in the most beautiful place with a beautiful view. The only thing I truly miss is a big bath tub. Makes me want to go to a hotel just to take a long bath! Dear Jordan, I love you.  Dear Mom, glad I got to see you. I wish it was under different circumstances but it was nice having you here. Dear Purse, I really need to clean you out and get you organized. A messy purse is a messy head. Dear Satellite Internet, You suck....but I guess it's better than nothing. Dear Russell, I love your hair, body, smile and personality. It's so nice having you back in my life. Dear Little Turtle, I really wanted to keep you. I hope you have a long happy life. It's a big world. Dear Laura, I hope to see you tomorrow! Glad you are sounding a little more happy! You are a wonderful person and I am so happy you are in my life. Dear Emily, I am in shock you are married again but I am happy for you! Dear PO Box, thank you for truly making my life easier. I like not having my mail come to the house. I'll come check you soon. Dear Grandma, It was so hard saying goodbye to you. I will forever love and miss you. Come see me in my dreams. Dear Mornings, you are not so easy for me. But having a comfy soft bed with no one snoring has changed everything. I have been waking up happy, rested and ready for a new day! Dear Cooper, I truly miss you. I didn't know our lives would turn out the way they did. I really hope you are ok and happy. Dear Fitbit, I love you. I think you are one of the greatest inventions ever! Dear Donald Trump, I wish you would just go away. Actually I wish I could put a parachute on you and my ex husband and push you both out of a plane far far away from here. Dear Daily Mail, you are still one of my biggest online addictions. Why I think you are the news, I don't know. I spend way to much time with you! Dear Body, I think you are enjoying the mini workouts you are getting now. However, I do feel older and you just don't feel like you use to. You hurt more. Guess that's just life.   Dear Laci, it was nice seeing you. Glad you are doing good. Dear Youtube, I wish I had more time to dedicate to you. It's not easy being in such a small place, with no actually doors except on the bathroom plus less time. But I promise I am trying to get back at it....on my own schedule... in my own time. Dear Harvest Home Coming, I am so excited about you! I can't wait to go walk around, go through the booths and eat yummy foods. Dear Art, thank you for everything you have done and continue to do for our kids. You are a good dad. Sorry I haven't always seen that but I know you love them. I'm proud of you. Dear Winter & Snow, I am seriously scared of you. Dear Dad, I miss you. I bet in less than 40 years we will see eachother again. I felt safe with you. I think about you everyday. I wish you were here right now....this second. Maybe you are. I really don't know but would love for you to come see me again in my dreams. Watch out for grandma Mary please. Dear Bakery, thank you for all your sound advice and mean comments. When you guys get it wrong you really get it wrong don't you? None of you make my decisions and never will. Dear Self, repeat to yourself over and over that everything is going to be ok. There is nothing to be scared of. Then remember that God is leading the way. Have confidence in yourself and your situation. Dear Gabby, I am glad you seem like your old self now. I think you like being the only kitty cat around! All the attention goes to you! I love you sweet kitty. Dear Kimmy, thank you for everything. I love you and I am so thankful for you. Family means everything. I am so happy to have you and your brother and sister in my life. Dear Blog/Youtube Friends, Thank you guys for being so kind and supportive. I am so amazed by all the kindness from you guys. Thanks for stopping by tonight. Have a wonderful weekend. I'll see ya soon! xx

DITL Vlog: Trying to get back into the swing of things!

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are having a great evening. I had big plans to put up a week in review but here we are....it's getting on into the late evening and I am just plain tired. I wasn't even sure I would be here at all talking to you guys tonight. Let me just say, I went in today....thinking I had to work and it was my day off but they needed me anyway so I stayed. It rained most of the day and spending it in bed would have been so much nicer. Guess that's what I get for not reading the schedule right. #kishaisadumbass. :)

Anyway, this past week I have been keeping to schedule with work and home. Doing pretty good at moving through the days without many problems or concerns. I feel like I am finally settling into life a little more and adjusting to everything that has happened. There is so much I really want to talk to you about. Many of you have had questions about this new transition. It hasn't been as easy as some of you might think but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be either. I guess deep inside I knew that life would get better when the big problem was removed. And he has been removed as well as the stress, worry, mistrust and violence. My own children and family seem to think a weight has been lifted from me. I would think they would know. I am a little numb to all of it. I am not even sure why but I truly am. I guess the universe has a funny way of giving you what you need....not necessarily what you want. 

I am trying to get back on some kind of schedule. I need to record a lot of videos on my days off and just upload over the week. Eventually I will get it all figured out! I wanted to share a new vlog. I guess it's not really a week in review  or day in the life vlog because it was over the course of a couple weeks. I just thought I would share the footage I had and move on from there. Hope you enjoy! 

I am going to relax the night away. Hopefully snuggle up in bed and fall asleep to the sound of the rain and wind. It's actually getting cooler here especially in the mornings. I'm not sure how I am going to cope with winter but I guess I will just have to suck it up and make the most of it! I hope your week is going well. Thanks so much for stopping by! I'll be back soon. xx

Friday Letters ♥

Friday, September 23, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are having a great friday. Since I am doing my best to get back with it...I thought another edition of Friday letters would be fun. Hope you enjoy! 

Dear God, I have had a lot of questions for you since my divorce and the death of my grandmother. I'm not mad but I wish you wouldn't have taken her from me. I understand the man. I asked for help getting away from him but I wish I still had my grandmother here. I hope she is singing with the angles now. Please hear my prayers and help put forgiveness in my heart for those who have and continue to do harm to me. 

Dear Brittany, Jackson, & Jordan, You are the best things that have ever came from me. Each of you are better than me and I am so privileged to that you call me mom. I am so proud of you. 

Dear Gabby, I am sorry you seem to miss your friends/family. I miss them too. I promise to change it as soon as we get moved. 

Dear Mom, I am so proud of you for getting through everything with grandma. I can't imagine that day coming for Laci and I. I would be soooooo lost without you. I love you mom. 

Dear Brangelina, Talk about shocking. Oddly enough I don't feel so bad about my divorce now. If you two big money Hollywood actors with a tribe of kids cant make it work.....who were we? All hope is lost.

Dear Laura, I hope you know that you are someone I truly adore. Remember everything I said when I was sitting in your kitchen last night. I really do think it could be the answer to a lot of our problems. I love you and we can figure out things together. You are not alone.....and never will be. 

Dear Camper, I am very thankful for a place to call my own for the time being. You have kept me warm and helped keep me safe while I have tried to deal with a broken heart, a new job, a new way of life and I appreciate it. But I am ready to move. Hopefully we will only be together a little bit longer. But I will miss the bed!!! The bed is the most comfortable bed I have ever slept in. Strange but true! And guess what? No work today means....time to clean you up. 

Dear Shanna, Thank you best friend for putting up with me. I love you. 

Dear Cherokee Park, I love you. I love you. I love you. I forgot how much I truly adore the space you take up and share with the with the community. I keep walking, searching and discovering new places that capture my mind, heart and soul. Who knew a park could do so much. 

Dear BGT8IRD, I am doing my best to not hate you. But really it's too late. YOU are one of the worst people on the planet and now I understand why that ex of mine is so screwed up. I wish nothing but the worst for you however, I am trying to get past those feelings so I will just pray for you. 

Dear Hair, I am doing my best to grow you out but you are getting on my nerves so badly! You also need dyed. Yep...thanks grey hairs! 

Dear Dad, I guess from the other side you can see everything that has happened. I wish you were here. I wish I could talk to you and actually hear your words back. I hope you are proud of me for not letting a man destroy me. It took a lot of previous lessons...and talks from you. I am stronger than I know and I still have those words from you flowing through my head. I love you and I will forever. 

Dear Blog, I have missed you so much. It feels amazing to be back where I belong. 

Dear Laci, I was very happy that you came up here this week. It was nice seeing you and I know mom appreciated it. I know you were not around many people up here but they are your family and they love you. I'll call soon. 

Dear Russell, Thank you for being here in such a crazy time. You know I love you. 

Dear Waffle House, I will see you soon but I think our time is about over. I am so grateful for the time and support you have given me. But better things are ahead.....and I need more money. I think I will miss my friends more than anything else. This is probably our last week together. :(  I am scared of a new job.....but I have to face those fears and get some real money made. 

Dear Mini Cooper, I guess we are not meant to be together forever. Another change in the air. It will feel good to move and not worry anymore. 

Dear Romeo, I miss you kitty cat. I truly do. I am sorry you were not the one who came with me. I thought I would take the one who needed me the most. Not the one I needed the most. My heart breaks everytime I wake up and don't see your cute face! 

Dear Body, I guess a divorce is doing you well. I have lost almost 12 pounds. With the new job in the future, I bet I loose much more. But could you please sleep better and stop with the hip and ankle hurting so much. 

Dear Kimmy, I am so thankful for all the love and support you have shown. I love you like a sister. And I will forever be grateful for everything you have done for me. 

Dear Bakery, Relying on Trina to tell you the truth is about as stupid as it gets. That's why I feel compelled to come on and tell you the truth. Get it right otherwise you will just look like dumbasses. 

Dear Buddy ( But NOT Joseph ), I should have said this years ago....but I am done. Like seriously done. Your mother loved you so much. You should have been there and you seriously cost yourself some family with your antics the last few days. It wasn't about you. It was about honoring your mother for 2 days. Do you think it was easy for any of us? Do you think we really wanted to be there? It hurt terribly but it was about honoring her life. People have made excuses for you for your entire life. There is nothing you can say that can fix this. You should be ashamed of yourself. Goodbye and Good Riddance. 

Dear Catherine, I'm sorry. I couldn't love him enough clearly. Our family became disposable to him. I thought I was a good wife. Guess not. It's just a title either of us held well. Sorry for what I said about Trina but sometimes she is just too much for any one person. I miss you and I will always love you.

Dear Phone, I broke you. Dropped you in water. Lost you.....and you are still hanging on. Please hang on a little longer and I will let you retire soon! 

Dear EXHusband, You are one of the biggest disappointments in my life. But you didn't destroy me. 

Dear Entire Martin Family, You guys really are some of the most loyal loving family a girl could ask for. Coming together for grandma, I saw love and kindness. I saw sadness. I am sorry for what my father's side of the family said and done to you guys. You are the loyal ones and I love you so much. I really do. You have lifted me up and cared for me in one of the hardest times of my life. You are my family. 

Dear Blog/Youtube Friends, Thank you guys for sticking around and for being so understanding. Things have really changed. I still have a lot that I need to get done/updated but I feel good about being here again talking with all of you. I love you guys.  See ya soon. xx

Wednesday Hodgepodge

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

It's been a loooong while since I participated in the Wednesday Hodgepodge. Since I am finally getting back with blogging/making videos, I thought today we would answer some fun questions with the rest of the ladies. :) Hope you enjoy!

1. Thursday (September 22) is the first official day of autumn in this part of the world...how will you welcome the season? I know some of you have been celebrating way too early, but it's official now so permission granted. House Beautiful recently listed ten ways to make your home smell like fall (you can read the list here) What's a scent you love this time of year and how will you add it to your home? 

I love fall. I always have. However, I am still not use to the colder temperatures. We are welcoming the season with heat in the mornings, hot coffee, cozy sweaters and long beautiful hikes in the vivid forest. I love all kinds of different fall scents however cinnamon is normally a bit too strong for me. A couple of years ago I found this candle in Warm Cashmere Sweater and fell in love.

It's the perfect fall scent without being too overpowerful. And who doesn't love candles! I plan on buying a few more and letting the scent linger through the house. 

2. Apple pie or pumpkin pie? Apple cake or pumpkin bread? Warm apple cider or a pumpkin spice latte?

All apple. I am not a huge pumpkin fan but my boyfriend is. So this year I suspect that we will be having both!

3. Do you suffer from what is sometimes referred to as an afternoon slump? What helps ward it off before it hits and/or tell us what helps you shake it off once it's here?

Absolutely. When I can I try to take a quick cat nap but most of the time coffee is helpful. And even during those sleepy moments, I just get moving....putting one foot in front of the other until I get my blood circulating and energy levels up.

4. Ladies-how have your friendships with women inspired you or made you a better person? For the men here today- how have your friendships with men inspired you or made you a better person?

I don't trust a lot of women. However, the strong women in my life have really helped level me out and have taught me that I can trust and depend on them. We have amazing women in our family and each one of them have taught me so many life lessons. They have taught me to not take life so serious. That change does happen and instead of fighting it....embrace it and learn from it. I am always amazed at their suggestions, love and support.

5. Are you a people pleaser? If you said yes, do you think that's a good or bad thing? If you said no, do you wish you were more of a people pleaser? 

I use to be but not so much anymore. Really the only true person you can make happy is yourself.

6. The seasons are a-changin'...share a favorite song relating in some way to change (not necessarily seasonal change, it could be change of any kind).

7. What do you wish would never change?

Its a little late for that question because so much has changed regardless of what I wanted. But life is all about changes. I am still figuring that out but even the hard changes happen for a reason. At this point my life is different...better and for me the one that I hope and pray never changes is the love from my kids. All else can change how it needs to change.

8.  Insert your own random thought here. 

Hello hodgepodgers. It's been a while since I have participated in this linkup. I have really missed you guys. And I have been through a lot of changes including a divorce and moving. Those are some pretty big changes. I tried to fight it at first but life has a way of giving you what you need rather you want it or not. And at this point, I am much happier. I am more independent and I am not as scared any longer. I am starting to blog and make videos again and find my own way in this big world. And I am not alone like I was scared I would be. I have amazing friends and family that have helped me every step of the way.

Today is going to be one of the hardest days ever. In a matter of hours we are laying my grandmother to rest. Another change for our family. A heartbreaking change to say the least. September has been hard but I am trusting God to get our family through it. I am trusting God to take care of a lady who meant so much to me and our family. She will be missed so much.

Thank you guys for stopping by. I really am trying to get back to normal on here. This is my home away from home and I have really missed being here....talking to you guys...sharing my thoughts. It's nice to be back. Have a wonderful Wednesday. ♥

Growth & Change

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Hi everyone. It's been a long while since we were together. It's been almost a month and a half since I have been here on this blog. So much has happened. So much has changed. First off there are a few updates on my youtube channel plus a little food haul that you can check out if you haven't already. Subscribe while you are there as well! ;)

I don't really even know where to start. At this point I am fully divorced. It certainly happened fast. It wasn't as painful as I thought it would be. I think anger carried me through that process. I still think that he single handedly destroyed our family without a second thought. I found out that I am stronger than I thought I was. I am doing just fine. And I am actually happier without all the drama and problems that came with being married to him. I really don't want him, my divorce, our past and or present issues to be in the forefront of everything. Its been over a month since I have opened this laptop. I have thought a hundred times how I wanted to handle my blog...youtube...all the social media. Well, I love this blog. I always have. Unlike my ex husband is has never left or hurt me. It's been a place of peace and pleasure both. I am not giving it up. I thought I would remove everything with him in but thinking about it now, its more of a public service to any woman that happens to google him. Maybe it will help/save someone else from the pain I have went through.

Through the pain, there has been a few shining lights helping lead the way for me. My best friend Shanna, my first love, Russell, my kids, my cousins, Laura, my mom have all been there for me. They have helped me figure out so many things. Life hasn't been all gloomy and sad because of them. They all have been amazing. But as I have been trying to figure out this new transition, my grandmother's health went down super fast and we lost her just a couple days ago. I honestly thought she might get better. Tomorrow is the viewing and while it will probably be one of the hardest days of my life I plan on standing strong and honoring her life. Our family will miss her so much. She was one of my best friends. We use to talk 4 or 5 times a day until she got sick. Then it all changed. But she is one of the reasons I came home as well. I just thought we would all have more time with her. Its truly heart breaking.

So a divorce and a death for me this month. While laying in bed crying seems like a reasonable thing to do, life isn't allowing that. I have so much going on. There is so much I want to share with you. Thank you to everyone that has stuck by me and not given up. Things are going in a new direction and I am excited about the future. I truly am. I haven't acted the best. I am upset by the constant bullshit of my sister in law. Not even Scott. But I think it reflects on who she is. I need to work on myself. Ask forgiveness for the mean thoughts and words I have spoken against that family and pray for them. I am done giving them any kind of power over me. Life is so much better; that my focus needs to be only moving forward. I have taken lots of deep breaths, trying to center myself and see things in a different way. I am angry at the entire planned out act of betrayal from Scott and her included. And that anger has gotten me pretty far in this divorce process. But now it's time to climb the mountain instead of carry the mountain. I need to let it all go and focus on all the good still in my life. All the blessings that have been sent my way. All the love given to me from family and friends.

As for youtube, I am keeping all the videos up and I hope to get back on schedule sometime in the very near future. I don't know exactly what direction it will go in but I think it will just be a hodgepodge of videos from vlogs, hauls, reviews, planner videos... just random stuff that I do.

I have a bunch of things coming up....

:: Get through Grandma's Service these next few days.
:: Find an apartment. I am currently living out in the country in a large RV. Grateful but ready to find a little apartment or house.
:: Apply for other jobs in area. Want to find a better job with better insurance.
:: Bath Gabby
:: Start working on reviews. Need to take lots of photos and just do it.
:: Clean up files on this laptop.
:: Take kids on a picnic sometime over the weekend.
:: Call about SUV I'm interested in. Who knows...I might just be able to make it happen. But I also have to take a drivers test to get my license back. Study...study...study.
:: Make a video really soon and get it uploaded. I think it will just be another update kind of video. However, I also want to film a planner update soon too.
:: Buy some kind of plant for the RV. It needs some plants around here.
:: Continue evening walks with Russell. They are great for clearing the mind and relaxing.
:: Order new fitbit charger. I have no idea where mine went...and I am going crazy without it. All those steps NOT COUNTED. Grrrrrrrrrrr!
:: Buy new phone. I dropped and shattered my phone. Its working but barely. This time I will get the case that will help protect it. Lesson learned.
:: Drink more water. Something I suck at.
:: Finally upload photos from all phones to laptop. Start working on a vlog.
:: Get to PO Box and check mail.
:: Do a load of laundry...towels.
:: Flat iron hair tonight so it's easier in the morning.

I know this post has been long. There are a ton of questions I know you guys want answered. I will start working on a blog post answering the more basic ones and then maybe do a video later. Thankyou guys for coming back...being patient with me. Your support has meant so much. There have been so many emails, comments, messages that I will never be able to respond to. I have really tried but at this point we are starting fresh. I don't want to feel overwhelmed. So even with all the hard things going on this September, we are moving forward. There is no other way. I am growing everyday from all these experiences. Even the hardest of times are teaching me the strongest lessons. Life is beautiful. I need to start honoring it more. And getting rid of the negative is a good start. I love new beginnings....fresh starts.....new weeks. So here I go and I hope you come with me.I love you guys. Thanks for stopping by. I promise to see you soon. xx

Helloooooooo! Catching up + Video(s)

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Hello friends! I know it's been a while. So much has been going on and I just haven't had the time or even the internet to give you guys updates. So here I am tonight...at work. It's slow and I have the laptop open waiting on customers to come have dinner. :)

I am finally moved out of the house. It's been a long time coming. Scott kept trying to tell me that I was going to be evicted...those papers never arrived. But I still couldn't manage the bills there and I just didn't want to be in that house anymore anyway. I am moved out to the country where nature has been helping heal me. And when I say that... I don't mean I am really broken because I am not. But divorce is never easy. I am thankful he is gone. I am thankful for a fresh start. I am thankful for old and new friends. I am thankful for family. But it's still been hard at times. Giving up the animals, not being with the kids, the lies he tells is hard. But I am also thankful that I haven't been alone in this new single life journey. I have had someone very special to me around. It's a rebound relationship? I think not. I have loved him since we were just kids riding bikes. I think we have more in common that not. He feels like home to me in every way. Some of you have expressed that you didn't like it but I am 40 years old and no one decides who is in my bed. It feels right. It just does and I am not hiding it or making excuses for it. 

We have done so much together already. He loves the woods as much as I do so we are hiking a lot....cloud watching...laughing. We have known each other for so long but it's like getting reacquainted with a old friend. I laugh more because of him. I smile more because of him....and I try to listen to what he says a little more than what I normally would do. It's a little bit different but I trust him and I trust what he says to me. He's the opposite of Scott...he's quiet and soft spoken. He's not about arguing or confrontation. He's gentle. And he does a lot of stuff that I am not use to...like shopping with me. Do you have any idea how often I begged Scott to go shopping? It's just different. A better kind of different. :) He also helps with making dinner and I absolutely find him so sexy in the kitchen. But still things are going slow and we are just starting to really spend a lot of time together. 

The kids are doing great. It's been hard not being with them day after day but they both understand that right now I have a lot on my plate. They do too with school back in. Brittany has cheer and Jackson has soccer. It's just a super busy time of year. I am slowly starting to get a new rhythm to my life. Soon I will be back at it with the videos and blog post. However, having a camera in my face and everyone else's is not exactly what I want to be doing. I love sharing with you guys but until I am truly on my feet, with my schedule really figured out.....I have to slow down. I have to focus on so much right now. I ended up leaving a lot of stuff at the house. Old planners. Photos. I didn't have a ton of help to move it. I didn't want to pay for storage and I just thought it was better to let Scott have all that stuff. I can start over. All I need is a bed and tv to start out with...and work on everything else as I go. It's just wasn't worth it to me. I didn't want to see the stuff we used when we were together. I am not in a good place with Scott. I think he is the lowest of the low. And even though I am happy he is gone....that does not excuse any of his behavior. But it wouldn't be Scott if there wasn't some kind of drama. It's to be expected. 

I have been pretty behind with this blog. Since the last time we have spoke, I put up a couple new videos...here they are in case you missed them. ↓

With both of those videos and this blog post, you should be pretty well caught up. I am still trying to get adjusted to this new way of life....that's for sure! But I wake up happy in the mornings. I wake up with a sense of purpose. I know I have a long way to go...but I am moving forward. I am moving forward with amazing kids, a sexy old friend who I have found so much comfort in and a new life. I am going to continue to trust that God has a plan for me. Trust that I can actually do this. Trust in a person who I have always loved and missed. Trust that my kids will be ok. Because I am so blessed with family and friends who really love me. That's what matters. With both their and YOUR love and support, I have been lifted up. You guys mean the world to me and I love you all. Truly. I wish I could get back to all your comments and emails but that's just not possible at this moment. I do read each one and I can't express how much they mean to me. Soon I will be recording a new question and answer video because there are so many questions. Feel free to leave your questions on any video or this blog post....and I will have an instagram photo in a few days that you can also leave your questions on!

Have a beautiful and blessed night. I'll talk to you soon!  xx

Tuesday Talks & Truths

Monday, July 25, 2016

Hello friends. I hope you are getting along well with your day.....here's another edition of Tuesday Truths. Hope you enjoy. 

I seriously hurt my ankle. I am walking on it so I doubt its broke but standing up for hours on end yesterday was not easy. But I did it and I am still alive. If it gets much worse I might go to the ER or something but so far, I am doing ok...not great but ok. 

My soon to be ex is back at throwing me in jail for God knows what. He's the reason I have hated my life for years. I wish he would just permanently go away. Thank you God for not giving us any children together. I have no idea what is wrong with him. No morals. No soul. Just plain evil. And now I understand why all his ex's hate him. It's easy to do.

I have been getting in a ton of steps according to my fitbit. I really hope with this divorce, not eating as much, working...and hopefully working out soon will help the pounds fall off. I can't do anything right now with my messed up ankle but I am going to sink in sometime just for me and my health. 

The kids start school in just a couple days. It's insane how early they go back here. Brittany and Jackson are both at Arts right now. Heartbreaking but true. Another reason I am so disgusted by the  man who just left my life. But we will be fine. He's not that powerful but it's hurts that she is not here. However, the kids are amazing and doing great. 

Many of you have asked how Cooper is doing. Honestly, I have no idea. It's painful to think about so once I am in the right position, I will a new puppy. I am Cooper is fine. And if he's not....it's not my issue any longer. Thank you for all your doggy l♥ve. 

The weather here has been so hot. I mean seriously hot here. I have been doing a lot of hiking and enjoying nature but it about killed me. I was a sweaty mess and had to take a cool shower as soon as I got back to the house. I think it is suppose to cool down soon so all I need is for my ankle to get better and I will be back at it! 

I am trying to take the high road here lately. I want this marriage over and behind me. I think games are being played because my ex is hurt which is confusing to me. He wanted this. This was his choice and now that he rolled the dice the game isn't ending as he expected. That's ok. He will find his own way and I am going to go my way. And honest to God I have fought with this man for way to many years. I just want it over. He can be cruel. Just like Michelle Obama said last night... he goes low, I am going to go high. He's a terrible role model to his kids, to his family. I hope he gets help before it's too late. Isn't it true that crazy people don't know they are crazy? I think that might be what we are dealing with. I just need to go on and keep being happy. It's odd but it's so true. 

I am slowly getting back to the recording videos. It's not easy to get on camera when I am dealing with so much but all your comments on this video have been so eye opening. YOU saw a change that not even I knew. Many of you have said that I seem so much happier. Thank you. I am! I'll record a video soon with a new update. 

My soon to be ex sister in law is acting a fool on her facebook and blog. I am sure her 5 followers will really care. God...some people just don't know when to shut the hell up. I think the entire family needs duct tape around their mouths. 

I took the most amazing long back last night. It was so relaxing. I have been doing so good waking up early. I sleep better now and I really truly appreciate that. I have been springing out of the bed happy each morning and ready to face the day. No one can really hurt me. The worst has already been done and everything else can be fixed. 

I want to take a vacation. Maybe some camping trips on the weekends but I think I am going to save for Hawaii. I want a post divorce trip to a beautiful exotic place. It's a new goal. Maybe in 6 months or so. Never know. :) I also think Jekyll
Island in Georgia would be a nice little trip as well.

I have really been enjoying a lot of my older friends since getting home. This is exactly where I need to be and I am so grateful for it. When going through something like this, you find out who really is loving, loyal and caring...and who's not. 

I plan on checking the PO Box today sometime. Thank you in advance for anything you sent. So many of you asked for it and from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Your cards and letters have been so amazing. I am responding right back so feel free to use it anytime. 

Also I have a ton of messages and comments that I still need to respond to. I have less time now and there are just so many. Sooooooo......I am just doing the best I can with it. I read everything. Thank you for taking the time to comment on any of my social network platforms. I love you guys. You have given me great advice and I will forever treasure it. 

I have been talking to my first son's father. So many of you had questions about him. We met when we were still riding bikes and separated when I was 23. I wanted to get married and he was no near that point at that time. We are basically best friends. I kinda want more but right now we are just going to take things slow so I can finish up this last married life chapter. I respect him. I love him. And he makes me laugh. I am glad so many of you liked him and said he was a better fit for me. I think so too. I should thank my ex for running out. Probably the best thing he has ever done for me. And right now the universe has brought back an old love in my life. I am excited about the future. :)

My best friend has been put through hell with my ex calling and texting her all the time. She is such a good person. I would be lost without her. She is always looking out for me. 

The Democratic National Convention was inspiring last night. Ha! No more fucking republicans in my bed. No way. I would rather slit my own throat first. Another bonus to getting divorced! 

I think I am letting Romeo go. Yea. It's probably the best thing. I am not 1000% sure yet but it's in my mind right now. Where I am going, it's probably not best for him. I might be wrong. I just have to put some thought and prayer into it. I love that cat like no other but I don't really see a way around it. I plan on keeping Gabby no matter what. I am tearing up right now. I just don't know. 

My mom is doing great. She is making a ton of money training dogs of all things. She's great at it and it got me thinking. I might just have to follow her lead up here. We'll see. I am so proud of her. Someone just flew her to Florida for a weeks worth of training of their puppy and are paying her over 1k. OVER. Good job mom! 

I have a lot to do in the coming days. I will do my best to check in. Be sure to find me on instagram and follow along for more photos and updates! xx

DITL VLOG:Getting Back on my Feet + More

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are getting along great with your night/morning. I am back today sharing a couple new video with you. This first one is the most recent day in the life vlog that just went live yesterday evening on youtube. I have really missed you guys and I thought one of the best things I could do for myself is get back to normal in every way as quickly as possible. 

It's been easier than expected getting through this. I thought it would be hard but each day life gets easier and better. I don't care if I lost every single possession.....I am still happier without my soon to be ex. Incase you don't know why he is going to soon be my ex, I also posted this video sharing my thoughts on everything regarding the divorce. 

Thank you guys for being so loving and supportive. I don't know what I do without you. I will be continuing to make videos and hopefully get back to a routine soon. Thanks so much for stopping by. I hope you have a beautiful and blessed week. xx

Life Update....Getting Divorced.

Friday, July 15, 2016

Hello friends. I know many of you have been wanting an update so here I am. Scott and I have been together for a long time. We made tons of great memories. We had tons of laughs.  We tried to make each other happy. But somehow along the way, we both started pulling away from each other instead of coming together and working on what was wrong. And believe me.....we both had our faults. Faults that ended up scaring the other person more than once. I think we both wanted a divorce but honestly, I was too scared to admit it. I was scared to loose my family....I wanted to fight to make things better. But God has other plans I suspect. 

And then one final fight ends it all. Things said can't be taken back. Action can't be taken back. And now we both are at a very difficult spot where I feel vulnerable, scared, angry. All normal feelings under such circumstances. And now honestly, I am left here alone to pick up the pieces of what is left. Not surprising but more than I can really handle alone. I feel set up and used....lied to and abandoned. But I already know that in time these feelings will pass. I know that in no time my broken heart and broken spirit will be healed. 

I am not sure what I am going to do with this blog. I might leave it the way it is and just go with things. I might delete photos and videos of Scott. I have no idea. I am in the middle of giving my animals away and trying to figure out what I truly want out of this house. Really I just want to grab a bag and walk out without ever looking back. But family and friends think that is crazy so maybe a few things from this house will end up in the next place I live. I really could care less at this point. But thankfully I have people around me who do care. Who are looking out for my best interest including my kids. Jackson and I were talking the other night and he made me promise to never get back with Scott for what he has done to us and our family. My daughter has been an angel through everything. I understand how the kids feel. I truly do. We are loosing everything and someone we loved used an argument as an excuse to leave. In reality I think he has had it planned out for a while which is fine. It just shocked me. 

There was a point when I was crying and begging...threatening...doing anything I could to get him to walk back through the door. I have poor communication skills to say the least. I have never been good at expressing how I feel. I am still kinda in shock but I am doing ok. I am still here. I am still trying to go on regardless a man walking out. I am trying to surround myself with people who truly love me and want the best for me. Clearly that person wasn't Scott. Clearly Scott was not the love of my life. And it's past time I get him out of my head. He has been a security blanket for me for years. Not a companion that I could trust. I was told I was verbally abusive to him. I probably was. He was no easy person to live with. He has demons of his own which made our life hard and complicated. I guess it was just too much. 

And now at this point, we are being kicked out of this house. Perfect huh? Is it scary, YES. Is it sad. YES. It is ever going to be the same again. NO.  I am beyond sad at this point. I never really wanted a divorce. I wanted to fight for my marriage and family but I can't do this alone. And if I am the only one really wanting things to get better, it still won't work. I don't think there is any hope at this point for Scott and myself. I think our only hope is to move on in our different directions and try to find the happiness we both are looking for....and never found in each other. I am not sure why it hurts so badly. I did love him. I still do but after everything he has done to me, our family, our animals.  None of them deserved this. There was no respect for the other lives in our family. And now I am left to figure it out all alone. Thanks Scott. We are his 4th disposable family. Scott tends to throw family's away when he gets tired of them. I just thought we would make it. I don't run when it gets hard. I don't call the police. I don't file papers in the court. I am just not that kind of person and I never thought I married that kind of person either. 

And if all of that is not enough....I have his family, writing cryptic blog posts shaming myself and Scott's older daughter. ( and by the way, that was his first disposable family. ) If I really told you half the stuff he has done, you guys would be shocked. Yet we are the ones to blame. I honestly can't figure out for the life of me why anyone would put their nose in someone else's divorce. And they are not even happy with their own miserable self and marriage. It's great. But people with big mouths and big attitudes don't know how to stay out of other people's business. It's people like her who have enabled Scott to do wrong for years and more importantly wrong right now. She doesn't know how to keep a marriage together anyway....so I am sure she is out singing his greatest praise being the little sister enabler. 

So with all of that said, I am going to try...I mean really try to move on with my life. Close this chapter with a man who clearly never loved me or this family. I hope to find love again one day. I hope to find happiness again one day and I hope to learn to be a better mom. The kids are the ones that are truly keeping me going. Without them I would be so lost. Actually, I am still lost. I am lonely. I am hurt. I can't believe someone who I loved and forgiven for so many years would stoop so low and leave me in the position I am in. I guess when people show you who they are....believe them. 

Revisiting our Favorite ☼ Summer ☼ Recipes! | Video & Recipe Links! |

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are getting along well today. I can't believe how fast summer showed up for us. It seems like yesterday when I was complaining about the cold weather and now here we are in the middle of the summer! I thought today I would take you back through some of my older recipes that I have already shared on my youtube channel and this blog. There are new people subscribing everyday who don't know about these recipes...who don't want to hunt through playlists for something new to make their family. So with that in mind, here are some of my tried and true family summer recipes! ( Direct links to each is below! ) Hope you enjoy. 

These recipes are pretty easy and I love using the grill and keeping the heat out of the house. Here are all the recipes shown/mentioned in the video above! 

Thank you for stopping by today. I plan on doing more of these where we revisit some of my past videos. I think it will be nice for new subscribers and a good refresher for friends that are already subscribed! :) Let me know if you have any questions about any of the recipes. Have a beautiful and blessed Wednesday. xx

Late Night Tuesday Truths

Hello everyone. It's late here...actually it's technically Wednesday. But since it's not Wednesday on the west coast....we are going with it! :) Here's another edition of Tuesday Truths. Hope you enjoy! 

:: My cats are fighting right now. They are running through the house....hissing, meowing and screeching like it's the middle of the afternoon. I guess their power naps paid off! 

:: I have done my best to not complain since moving here but yesterday we got a $225 sewer bill. Our water bill is separate and was $100 for the same time period. What the hell is a sewer bill I ask you!? In SC we only had a water bill that covered it all and it never costs us anything like this. And then I try to call them only to realize these nice sewer people get off work at 430. Fancy that. I am forsure calling tomorrow and finding out what this is all about....plus I want to know why in the world it's that high. I understand the water bill but not that sewer bill. I just imagine in my head that we are flushing the toilets too much! hahahahaha! Idk but I am going to figure this sewer mess out. 

:: Scott is clearly having problems sleeping tonight. He choose the couch because he is tossing and turning so much. He's awake right now flopping around. I feel sorry for him. Sleep is hard for me but not usually due to pain. :(

:: I had a nice walk early in the day only to buy Long John Silvers. Makes sense right? I thought so. 

:: Zane doesn't start football for a couple of weeks. For the past week or so he has spent a lot of time on the xbox and internet.....driving his dad crazy. I think we just want them all to have the childhood that we did. We played outside. We were not in the house watching tv or playing on electronics when the sun was shining. We weren't up our parents butt's all the time either. It's just not really that way with our kids. But we are trying to change that a little at a time. 

::  I am learning how to really communicate what I am feeling and thinking without hesitation. It's been kinda fun just saying how I feel and not making any excuses about it. When I say no, I mean it...and I feel good inside knowing I am speaking my truth. It might piss them off but not me! 

:: Summer TV has been totally sucking. I wish all the new seasons of all my favorite shows would come back on...soon very soon. 

:: Have I mentioned how much I hate doing my nails? It's always a hassle. But I hate spending all that time...money too at nail salons. I just have to get better at it I guess. 

::  Yesterday I had to remind the kids of the chores again...which is 2 chores per day for Brittany and Zane and Jackson only has one chore a week because he's at his dads most of the time. Well with that friendly reminder to take out the overflowing trash and emptying the dishwasher they also got a warning. If I have to remind them to do those simple tasks, they will have to remind me to turn on their data or turn on the internet here in the house. And I won't be in any kind of hurry. And again, I said it with a smile on my face. :)

:: More terror attacks in Turkey tonight. 50 dead and 147 wounded.  I don't understand this world. And it scares me to know that one day I won't be here to protect my kids and family. 

:: I got an email from what I suspect was a troll listing out all the things that they didn't like about me. Bhahahahaha Yea ok. What do they think I will do. Change everything they mentioned? No way in hell am I doing that. Instead they got a very sweet email back thanking them for taking the time to write me. Again....the art of  " bitchcraft " happening in full force here lately. Most of the time I am a loose cannon with my mouth. No one knows what to do when I don't react like I normally would. Don't get me wrong....I still have all those thoughts in my head but they are not coming out of my mouth. 

:: I miss Jackson. I know he is happy at his dads. He is getting more mature and growing up so fast. Tomorrow today is soccer practice! :) 

:: I am already talking to Scott about how this next school year ( starting July 27 ) is going to be. Lots of driving. Lots of sports activities. I am a little nervous about driving in winter but Scott said he would handle the driving on those days. It scares me to think about driving the roads when they are snowy and icy. No thank you. I will totally be a winter hermit as much as possible! 

:: I am still loving my bullet journal. I did have to switch out of the grey one because a accident happened and coffee got spilt and it soaked through the pages. Thanks kitty cats....I still love you though! And maybe it was for the best anyway. 

:: I have been drinking a little apple cider vinegar everyday. It's harsh some mornings but I find drinking it in warm water...not hot but warm with a little lemon is a bit easier. I drink it fast to get it in me so I can move on to coffee. I'll probably make a video soon explaining it all soon. From what I understand there are lots of health benefits. It can't hurt so I added it into my morning routine. 

:: My hair is at that weird state. It's not so easy growing out an angled bob. It's all different lengths and it's starting to wing out in the back some but I'm dealing with it. Today I just let it do it's own thing....which looked crazy. Thankfully my hair tends to grow fast. 

:: We are having a cookout over the weekend and I never got the invitations made so I guess it's going to be by phone! I am so happy we can be home with our kids and family. If just all the kids were here, I would be so happy. However, Jackson and my ex husband have plans. Grrrrrrrrrrr.  Maybe I will just switch it to Saturday instead of Sunday and he can come....great idea! 

::  I am walking Cooper....starving him basically ( from what his expressions show ) and I don't making a bit of difference. He's going to be 9 in December and I just hate to do this to him in the last years of his life. But I know it's for the best....but it makes me feel awful. 

Thank you guys for stopping by! I might be late with this post but at least I got it done and published! :) I'll see ya soon with a new video! xx

♡ Recent Empties! ♡ Beauty, Household & Pets → June 2016 | Video |

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are having a wonderful Tuesday. I am back today with a new video sharing our empties since our move. These are the things we have used up....with my thoughts on each! Hope you enjoy. 

I did my best to share a new items of variety. My husband use to think I was crazy for saving the " trash" but now he's totally on board and now we even have a special spot and bin for all our empties. :) I would love to hear about something you have used up and either enjoyed or not so enjoyed from this past month. I hope you have a beautiful and blessed Tuesday. New edition of Tuesday Truths coming up later today....so be sure to come back! xx

Week in Review w/ DITL Vlog & Weekly To Do's June 20-27, 2016

Monday, June 27, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are having a wonderful Monday. I am back today sharing a new week in review. This is where I share bits and pieces of the past week. Hope you enjoy! More is below...

We had a really nice week. We had pretty good weather and all the kids were more active outside. Coming up here in the warmer months I think was wise. The evenings are beautiful. I am still feeling so blessed to be here with our kids and family. I can't believe how fast summer is happening. The kids last day of school was May 27 and they start back up July 27. They are considered to go all year around....something new since I went to school here. Back to school " everything " is going to happen much earlier for us this year. A new schedule for a new but old city! 

Here's a few things I want to get done this week:

:: Water plants...the days are getting hotter and hotter
:: Check PO Box
:: Wash outdoor cushions
:: Clean ashes out of grill
:: Get to sleep at a better time....still staying up too late. 
:: Laundry....the washer always seems to be running in this house. 
:: Paint Nails...again
:: Clean up DVR
:: Order Brittany's Cheer Items....bows and bodysuits 
:: Scoop cat boxes....Yuck!
:: Start new house project....not sure which one it will be....but starting on something. 
:: Wash windows
:: Walk Cooper daily. 
:: Make a sweet treat for the kids
:: Get Scott to mow the yard.

Here's some inspiration to take with you. 
Thank you for stopping by today. I am taking things a bit slower but as soon as this goes live, it's time to get a lot done around the house. I also hope to record a video today or this evening for tomorrow so I guess I better get on it! Have a beautiful and blessed week! xx

Friday Night Shopping Haul | Video |

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Hello friends, I hope you are having a wonderful Sunday afternoon. I am back sharing a Friday night food haul. It was a long day but the kids really wanted to go, so we went shopping a little later than normal. I share some dinner ideas and the items we got...hope you enjoy! 

I really enjoy watching hauls as much as I enjoy sharing them. I guess it's a bit like buggy watching! Anyway,  I hope to finally be back on schedule with my Friday and or Saturday hauls. I hate going grocery shopping in the middle of the week. I was going to share a what's cookin' vlog but there is just not that much footage...and not that many meals. Sooooo...stay tuned for a new cooking vlog to pop up next Sunday! xx

Friday Letters

Friday, June 24, 2016

Hello friends! I hope you are having a wonderful Friday. I am back with another edition of Friday Letters. It's been a while since I have shared one of these blog post....so I hope you enjoy!

- Dear God, Thank you for watching over and protecting our kids. That's really all I want. Thank you for listening to my prayers. 

- Dear Self, You really need to get your act together and start getting to bed earlier. The school year will be here before I know it....and there is no hiding under the covers from that point on! 

- Dear Summer, I feel as you are passing us by. I think it's just taken a while to get settled in and I don't this is the year for a big family vacation....but I do want to do a few fun things with the kids.  

- Dear Scott, I love you dear husband but that snoring is driving me crazy! I think we are both sleeping a lot less now that we are back in the same bed. But I do like having you beside me....regardless of how loud you are! 

- Dear Jackson, You did great at soccer the other night. I am so proud of you for finally trying a sport. You will always be my baby. I love you Jackson. 

- Dear Emily, I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard it is for you and your kids right now. Just hold them close and know that one day you will see your sweet heart again. And he's with you right now...be calm and you will feel it. 

- Dear Bare Minerals, You are hands down my favorite makeup. Seriously. I don't know why I even try other things. You always make my skin feel and look better. Thank you. :)

- Dear Mom, glad everything is going well with the dog training. I think it's the perfect little job for you! 

- Dear Donald Trump, Running a golf course IS NOT like running a country. You are so full of shit. The end. 

- Dear Brittany, You are growing up so fast. I am so proud of you. You are still the best thing I have ever done. Keep working hard to accomplish your goals and to follow your dreams. 

- Dear Neighbors, thank you for those American flags flying high around our house. I love looking out my bedroom window and seeing the flag. It just makes me happy so thank you! 

- Dear Cooper, I was going through your papers and realized you really will be 9 years old this December. You are such a huge part of our family and we love you bunches! 

- Dear Trina, Sorry your new camera isn't everything you would be. Hopefully you will find one that meets all your needs soon! 

- Dear Body, you have been feeling so much better but this past week, I have been more achey, sore and uncomfortable. Please start feeling better soon.

- Dear Zane, there is a big world beyond the xbox! Put down the controller and come join us! We love you! 

- Dear Indiana, Thank you for all the good memories we have made here so far. I am so happy to be up here with all of our kids and family. I can't believe I was so scared and nervous about being here. It's so much better than what I thought it would be. 

- Dear fitbit, I am so addicted to you. I think it's amazing how you can keep track of so much. I don't know how I ever lived without you! 

- Dear Shanna, I'm sorry that life has just gotten busy! I miss you and will make sure we have time to talk more! And yes....the new rug is really pretty! 

- Dear Cesar Millan, I am still obsessed with your shows. I love that our handy DVR is finding and recording all the old shows I have never seen before. 

- Dear Laura, I know you might not be happy about it but I am happy you guys are finally coming back. We have missed you! Drive safe. 

- Dear Bullet Journal, you are really working well for me right now. :) Thank you for making my life easier. 

- Dear Coffee, you were so good this morning that I am still drinking you right now! :)

- Dear Dad, I wish things were better between us. Sorry...your crazy bitch wife is too much for me. Wait till I tell you everything she has done. I know you don't know how to be a father and I forgive you for it but it would be nice if you could try harder. Do you ever think about them? You know who I am talking about....you don't just bury your dead and move on. You are suppose to honor their lives everyday. 

- Dear Tickets, it's time to pay you but let me just be clear.....YOU SUCK! But I have to pay you or I won't be able to get my Indiana license. No more excuses. 

- Dear NASA, I want you to speak up and out a little more about these photos. I need to hear from you if these are true pictures before I really made a personal judgement. It looks kinda real to me but I still want to know those are exact photos from the Curiosity rover undoctored. 

- Dear House, I am still loving you. I am doing my best to get back to a normal cleaning routine and back to including zones in my routines as well. It's not the easiest thing to move into a new house and having to create new zones, cleaning times, new rooms....it's a big job and I never feel completely done! Thank you for keeping us warm and safe. 

- Dear Kitty Cats, you guys are a little pack around here stalking flies and chasing each other around here. 

- Dear Hair, not sure what I am doing with you. Do I grow you out?? Keep you short?? Not sure. I am thinking I will maybe let it grow out to my shoulders. But I don't want long hair to deal with everyday. Shoulder length should be long enough. 

- Dear Blog/Youtube Friends, thank you guys for always being so kind and supportive. I have stayed in this community because of you. I love you guys. Have a great weekend! xx