Hello friends! I hope you are having a wonderful Sunday. I bet many of you are starting off the festivites for the Super Bowl tonight. I on the other hand am sitting here still sleepy trying to find my motivation. I thought today I would share another Sunday Inspiration post. It's been a while since I have written one of these posts but I really want to get my normal blogging and youtube schedule back in order. So here we are...on this beautiful Super Bowl Sunday.
I feel like for the past month or so I have been dealing with so much negative stuff. From my neighbors to a strange youtuber....not to mention all the stress of everyday life with a husband and two teenage boys. It's not like I don't have enough on my plate already. And instead of being graceful I have just let it all flow from my mouth. I don't see the point in trying to keep it all a big secret. I would rather be myself and just respond. But while I am busy typing like a maniac and trying to defend myself, I am not hearing God. I am not focusing on really what matters.
For years I have felt the need to stand up for myself. It simply was the way I was raised. Be Strong. Speak up for yourself. Don't take crap off anyone my grandfather use to tell me. And I have done what he has told me so many times in my life. I have stood up when everyone was sitting down to point out something wrong. I have opened my big mouth to defend myself, my family, my friends. I have tried to teach my kids the same thing. I want them to use their voices and not be scared. But there does come to a point when enough is enough. I think right now in all the online crap, it's time to just to keep my mouth shut. I don't want to burden my friends/family/viewers/subscribers with my problems or drama. And for all the past ranting about it....I am sorry. I for some reason just feel the need to stand up and speak out. But a viewer on this video shared her comment that I should kill them with silence. I have thought about this for days now. Should I kill them with silence? Should I not speak out? And after days of pondering those questions my thoughts now are.....it's time to be radar silent on these kind of attacks. No matter whatever I say....there will people who won't believe me and it will only get them going even harder.
I have made peace with not everyone liking me. I really have. I have made peace with people talking crap non stop. Really I have handled it better than most would assume. I can go happily along with my day even after I have read some horrible thing someone said about me. Life goes on. But what I can't do is defend myself day in and day out. When I am in that frame of mind, I am not able to hear Gods message. I know that. I am going to work much harder at keeping my mouth shut and just move on. I have such a beautiful life and that's where I want my energy to go. Time to refocus. The crazy online drama has taken enough of my time already. I hope you follow this blog and my youtube channel because you want to and I am grateful for every comment made on every video and on here. It has truly been a blessing and honor to be a part of this community. I hope to move on to better times and I hope you come with me. ♥ Happy Sunday. Enjoy the Super Bowl!