Friday, July 15, 2016

Life Update....Getting Divorced.


Hello friends. I know many of you have been wanting an update so here I am. Scott and I have been together for a long time. We made tons of great memories. We had tons of laughs.  We tried to make each other happy. But somehow along the way, we both started pulling away from each other instead of coming together and working on what was wrong. And believe me.....we both had our faults. Faults that ended up scaring the other person more than once. I think we both wanted a divorce but honestly, I was too scared to admit it. I was scared to loose my family....I wanted to fight to make things better. But God has other plans I suspect. 

And then one final fight ends it all. Things said can't be taken back. Action can't be taken back. And now we both are at a very difficult spot where I feel vulnerable, scared, angry. All normal feelings under such circumstances. And now honestly, I am left here alone to pick up the pieces of what is left. Not surprising but more than I can really handle alone. I feel set up and used....lied to and abandoned. But I already know that in time these feelings will pass. I know that in no time my broken heart and broken spirit will be healed. 

I am not sure what I am going to do with this blog. I might leave it the way it is and just go with things. I might delete photos and videos of Scott. I have no idea. I am in the middle of giving my animals away and trying to figure out what I truly want out of this house. Really I just want to grab a bag and walk out without ever looking back. But family and friends think that is crazy so maybe a few things from this house will end up in the next place I live. I really could care less at this point. But thankfully I have people around me who do care. Who are looking out for my best interest including my kids. Jackson and I were talking the other night and he made me promise to never get back with Scott for what he has done to us and our family. My daughter has been an angel through everything. I understand how the kids feel. I truly do. We are loosing everything and someone we loved used an argument as an excuse to leave. In reality I think he has had it planned out for a while which is fine. It just shocked me. 

There was a point when I was crying and begging...threatening...doing anything I could to get him to walk back through the door. I have poor communication skills to say the least. I have never been good at expressing how I feel. I am still kinda in shock but I am doing ok. I am still here. I am still trying to go on regardless a man walking out. I am trying to surround myself with people who truly love me and want the best for me. Clearly that person wasn't Scott. Clearly Scott was not the love of my life. And it's past time I get him out of my head. He has been a security blanket for me for years. Not a companion that I could trust. I was told I was verbally abusive to him. I probably was. He was no easy person to live with. He has demons of his own which made our life hard and complicated. I guess it was just too much. 

And now at this point, we are being kicked out of this house. Perfect huh? Is it scary, YES. Is it sad. YES. It is ever going to be the same again. NO.  I am beyond sad at this point. I never really wanted a divorce. I wanted to fight for my marriage and family but I can't do this alone. And if I am the only one really wanting things to get better, it still won't work. I don't think there is any hope at this point for Scott and myself. I think our only hope is to move on in our different directions and try to find the happiness we both are looking for....and never found in each other. I am not sure why it hurts so badly. I did love him. I still do but after everything he has done to me, our family, our animals.  None of them deserved this. There was no respect for the other lives in our family. And now I am left to figure it out all alone. Thanks Scott. We are his 4th disposable family. Scott tends to throw family's away when he gets tired of them. I just thought we would make it. I don't run when it gets hard. I don't call the police. I don't file papers in the court. I am just not that kind of person and I never thought I married that kind of person either. 

And if all of that is not enough....I have his family, writing cryptic blog posts shaming myself and Scott's older daughter. ( and by the way, that was his first disposable family. ) If I really told you half the stuff he has done, you guys would be shocked. Yet we are the ones to blame. I honestly can't figure out for the life of me why anyone would put their nose in someone else's divorce. And they are not even happy with their own miserable self and marriage. It's great. But people with big mouths and big attitudes don't know how to stay out of other people's business. It's people like her who have enabled Scott to do wrong for years and more importantly wrong right now. She doesn't know how to keep a marriage together anyway....so I am sure she is out singing his greatest praise being the little sister enabler. 

So with all of that said, I am going to try...I mean really try to move on with my life. Close this chapter with a man who clearly never loved me or this family. I hope to find love again one day. I hope to find happiness again one day and I hope to learn to be a better mom. The kids are the ones that are truly keeping me going. Without them I would be so lost. Actually, I am still lost. I am lonely. I am hurt. I can't believe someone who I loved and forgiven for so many years would stoop so low and leave me in the position I am in. I guess when people show you who they are....believe them. 

85 comments:

  1. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    What do you mean you're getting rid of the animals? Getting kicked out of the house? By who? Scott, the landlord? Where will the kids go?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yes he walked out leaving me no money. I had to use the rent money to live on. I took him Cooper last night. Trying to figure out what to do with the cats..probably trying to keep 2 and selling the hedgehog. Brittany is going back to her dads where Jackson currently is. Scott has Zane. It's awful. But I am hoping there is some light at the end of the tunnel soon.

      Delete
    2. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

      So Scott skipped out on the lease for the house? Are you going to get a job and try to stay in the house or area? If you're honest about the situation maybe the landlord will work with you until your paychecks start coming in.

      Delete
    3. No I could never afford this house on my own. Maybe I should have paid the rent and been penniless but that only takes care of things for 30 days. He said he would pay the bills still and give us money for groceries and stuff and nothing. So I couldn't trust he would pay everything anyway. So they are evicting us... was told it will happen within 5 days. The landlord is moving forward unless they get the money.

      Delete
    4. Kisha,
      So sorry! You deserve better! Sadly, many men walk away and leave the wife and children penniless.
      If you need help, set up a go fund me account and I'm sure all the women on this channel will help you.
      Stay strong and you are in my prayers.!

      Delete
  2. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    wow. and i'm so sorry. i feel compelled to write and offer you a lot of empathy and support and maybe just the tiniest smidgen of advice. i can read how hurt you are, and i know how tempting it is to want to throw away everything with his name and face, but for your own healing (and not for any other reason), i kindly offer the option not to do that. clearly i don't know you, but i've watched your vlogs and channel for a long time, and you come across as such a nice and genuine woman. i sense that it would be outside of who you are to throw away the years you had together. maybe put them away for now while you work through your anger, but also maybe try to remember the good things and the good times. i believe you don't have children together, but this would be such a great teaching moment for your children to demonstrate grace, kindness, and forgiveness, regardless of the hurt.

    i hope this doesn't offend you, i certainly don't intend for that. i just hate to see someone who seems so kind and fun to be so hurt and to maybe say or do things that you might regret later.

    that's all, and virtual support and hugs for you. thank you for being so open and transparent. we can all learn from this. <3

    sorry this is showing up as anonymous, i don't know how to put my name on it..... :-/

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I am not offended at all. Thank you for that comment. I will toss all the photos in a box...maybe. Idk. I am so upset. I don't want to think of him anymore. He broke my heart....broke our family apart...including the animals and it's hard to see past that to good time we once had. It makes me sick how he treated us so disposable. Thank you for the hugs. And I am learning from this.

      Delete
  3. You will get through this. Pray and find what is best for you. Find a job you enjoy and the next place you live, really make it yours. You will come out ahead.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I hope you are right. Thank you so much for your sweet comment. xx

      Delete
  4. I'm so sorry this is happening to you and the kids. I'll be praying for you! God, won't put more on you than you can handle, as soon you think your at your lowest god has a breakthrough for you. Trust me I have been there. I love your blog, hopefully you will be able to keep it. Scott, will have to deal with GOD FOR HIS mistakes!😡

    ReplyDelete
  5. I would have never thought he would just up and leave you with nothing! That's horrible that's the lowest of low. Was it maybe his plan to move there and then leave where you wouldn't be totally alone?

    ReplyDelete
  6. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    Kisha I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Please find a battered womens shelter. They can help you become a strong independent woman.

    ReplyDelete
  7. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    Disposable Familys..... What a POS
    Donna.

    ReplyDelete
  8. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    I know it's none of our business but was this all from NC or just the new move? It seems so sudden and you did seem a little off in some of your vlogs. Sorry about your situation I have been exactly where you are right now & it feels hopeless, but I promise with your great attitude you will come out shining bright. Best of luck hun ��

    ReplyDelete
  9. Mrs. RennebohmJuly 15, 2016

    Kisha, I am soo sorry to hear about your situation. Scott should be ashamed of himself, his loss on losing the best mother & wife. I wish you, your kids, and pets some love your way. All the best Kisha, keep your chin up

    ReplyDelete
  10. Sorry your going through all this. Going through the same thing but I walked out on him. He changed into someone he was not. We need to start a page for people that are going through the divorce and break up. To help with the pain and anger.

    ReplyDelete
  11. Wow Kisha, first thank you for the update, I have been praying for your streighth and guidance. Since all this came down, I think a lot of people has learned from this including myself.
    Second, you are a strong women, things will work out for you. It may take some time but you will come on top out of all this. Please keep us updated and lots of huges to you and the kids.

    ReplyDelete
  12. Keisha,
    I'm so sorry you are going though all of this. It's so sad. I have family who has gone though and is going though it. It seems never ending. Take it one day at a time. You are a beautiful, awesome person who I don't know in person but hope things get better and you will find that one special person. Sorry about the pets. Sorry about Brittany going back with her dad.
    It's hard to know what to do with the blog but you have to do what you have it. When you are ready just start a new one if possible.

    ReplyDelete
  13. Thoughts and prayers for you at this very difficult time. I am so sorry :(

    ReplyDelete
  14. This comment has been removed by the author.

    ReplyDelete
  15. Please don't get rid of your cats I love seeing them on the videos there awesome. I send prayers and good thoughts to you. I hope what I said doesn't offend you I don't mean it to really I don't I think your awesome and I really enjoy your videos.

    ReplyDelete
  16. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    Kisha, I am sorry that you are going through this. It is a very sad, confusing and vulnerable time for you as well as all the children. I was married for 24 years and my ex husband just walked out on me and our 2 children. I even had to tell the children about it, he was man enough to take a female 15 years younger than him but not man enough to tell me or his children about it. That was over 10 years ago. I was lucky that I had my family there to help any way they could. He wanted out bad so I made out like a bandit with the property settlement and child support for one child. I learned some things that I would like to pass on to you. I know that you and Scott don't have children together but Scott did play a parenting role in your kids lives maybe more so in Jackson's. It is not a good thing to talk bad about one parent to the children. I know it is hard not to with all the feeling you are going through but your separation is so new. You never know what may happen in the future. If by chance you and Scott get back together your children will all ways remember your words.( I am NOT in any way shape or form saying that you have talked bad about Scott to the kids.)Also if by chance you and Scott get back together he will always remember your words about him. I know you fell like you need to do something quick but take as much time as you can and plan your next move. When we rush to do something a lot of times we miss something important and it may not be in our best interest. If possible get a good attorney. They will fight for you tooth and nail to get everything they can for you. There are things we never think about addressing that may help you. When it comes to personal belonging just let him have his personal things(clothes etc...) Things like tools, yard working stuff, furniture, household items, etc are community property. In my state since my husband walked out he was entitled to his personal stuff and far as the other stuff( not counting real estate and cars and such)he could not touch anything until the property was settled. As someone about stated don't through out memories yet. Pack it away if you need to and deal with it at a later date. There is always two sides to a story and I ache for you and Scott. A marriage is a terrible to waste. We all make mistakes and I am sure both you and Scott have made your fair share just as my ex husband and I did. There are bright days ahead. I have remarried and I am the happiest I have ever been. I have a husband that treats me as if I am a queen but I also treat him as if he is a king. These are some of the worse days you will ever go through but with support from family and friends and our almighty God you can and will get through this. Praying for all involved.I know this is hard for you but this may make a good series on your youtube channel. I am not saying you should go into detail about what is going on(that is no ones business but yours and Scott's) but maybe talking about your feeling and how you are dealing it those feelings. There are a lot of women out there that have no where to turn and you could possibly help them through your experiences. Don't worry about what other people will say about your content. Think about all those you will help and it will most likely help you too to get things off your chest. You have a whole group of ladies on Youtube there for you. Looking forward to new videos just take the time you need. Hugs and prayers,Teresa

    ReplyDelete
  17. Kisha- that was devastating to read. My heart hurts for you and your family. If Scott walking out and apparently playing horrible childish games weren't enough the fact that you just got the kids situated and now that's torn apart is even worse. I'll say this, if you grew accustom to a certain lifestyle while married, make sure this guy pays alimony when you finalize your divorce don't let him just walk away with no diet on his hands, don't put this all on your own shoulders.. it's so sad to hear of you loosing some pets, pets are family and I can only imagine your pain.. I wish you all the best. P.s. don't let him win.

    ReplyDelete
  18. Girlie, Again, I am so sorry, but don't let this situation control you, you control it, come out of this stronger HAPPIER and have more of a full life. Refuse to be Unhappy, refuse to be tormented by what-if's or what could have been, but instead, make your life about you and your kids and fill it with only positive happy things. The sun will shine again, those dark clouds will roll away and you will find yourself smiling for no reason at all other than just because you are TRULY HAPPY. Prayers coming your way lady, God Bless you and your family girlie.

    ReplyDelete
  19. So sorry Kisha for what your goin thru I'm sure it's hard.Things will get better.Stay strong.

    ReplyDelete
  20. Wow, you did so much to make a home for him. He will regret it when there's no one. So sorry, but please keep in touch!

    ReplyDelete
  21. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    sounds like he literally pulled the rug out from under you, You are the mom and the backbone of the household and now the kids are scattered again and its total BS! You are left scattered about too and trying to figure out what to do and how to survive, I hope he didnt orchestrate this move to get closer to his family and had this thought in mind beforehand, I am deeply sorry for what this is doing to your entire family. Iv been thru something similar and it cause extreme sad and panic mode survival, all while missing and crying for the family life and missing your kids with you. There has been so many major changes for all of you and its unbelievable that just at the point of getting a homelife established with all the kids close by, that this could even be a consideration. at some point its not about what we as adults want or need, its about the kids and how they feel and what they need. a lesson many learn way to damn late! I wish I could find you a majical solution Kisha. its beyond hurt, its devistation. Find yourself a support system and keep your daily contact with all the kids! it will be your sanity and saving grace!

    ReplyDelete
  22. Kisha I pray that all will go the way god want. All things work together for good the bible says. You are a beautiful woman. And I know you'll find love again. Get alimony not for meanness you need it to pay for carnote and among other things a place. Maybe your exhusband wouldn't mind you staying you'll be with the kids. Kisha you need to center yourself around supporting people who love you. I want you to pray because prayer changes things. Your friend Donna manucci

    ReplyDelete
  23. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    There were many stressful things taking place just prior to all this happening. Almost kicked out from land lady ... Zane .... moving back to a place with bad memories ..... a new job ..... sleeping together ... new schedule changes ....famiy situation changes were happening ................. maybe if you guys just stopped and talked and really look at all the current changes that just took place .... maybe call it a lesson learned . We all make mistakes kiss and make up already !!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  24. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    Stay strong Kisha, you will get through this and be stronger and better than ever. Hugs

    ReplyDelete
  25. AnonymousJuly 15, 2016

    Please set up a go fund me page!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I don't understand why she would need a gofundme. She's capable of working. I worked 3 jobs when my kids were little all the while suffering from Grab Mal seizures. If they had a child in common she could probably get spousal support. She's probably not going to get any help though. Good luck Kisha.

      Delete
  26. Tessa BrannanJuly 15, 2016

    Oh Kisha, I am just so sad for you & your children (including your furkids). I hate that Scott has Cooper & I know he must miss his mommy.
    When bad things like this happen I try hard to make sense of it & find some ray of light buried in the darkness. I think you haven't been happy for a real long time & I suspect you knew that something needed to change. I have to admit, I have also been verbally abusive to my husband & it all comes from frustration & hurt that I haven't been able to work through. You have a chance to focus on & maybe find yourself again. When us women spend all of our time trying to be mothers & wives & do everything our family needs us to do we tend to forget who we were before we were a mother and wife. In my case it has caused resentment & then guilt for feeling that way. I have prayed for you so hard & will continue to. You're a good person Kisha & you deserve happiness. So do your children. I think one day Scott will regret his choices. You will have such a sense of pride and accomplishment being able to survive & thrive without him. And you will survive & thrive, because you're strong & you're smart. Gods' Blessings <3

    ReplyDelete
  27. Your Vlogs are so soothing to me. I love how close you were as a family and I love your pets. I love how you talk to us about your day, reviews, etc. I even have my kids watching it with me. We usually watch it in my 53' inch TV. Your Vlogs is like my show to watch after a long day. And I must admit, your channel is one of my favorites on YouTube. Just so you know.

    I'm in shocked that it's over between you and Scott and although I think it was very irresponsible for him to just leave and leave you to do all the decision making and left you penniless, I hope God touches his heart and ya' work things out... If not, that he can help you out with rent, bills, food til you can get back on your feet, possibly find a job and take over the bills from there. I hope God touched his soul and humbles him.

    Gosh, I hope you don't give away your pets. We all love your pets. Is there a way family can hold them until you get yourself together or move to a smaller, affordable place? Is there a way your close friends/family can help you with money for you can pay this month rent, bills and you can try to get a job ASAP?

    It's so sad because you just moved. Usually a new move is like starting over again. And I honestly saw you were happy in your new home in your Vlogs.

    I will pray for you. Please keep us posted. We all love you and enjoy your Vlogs, channel and blogs. We also love you as a person. God bless you and your family.

    PS: My boyfriend of nine years died right in my arms 8 months ago. It was your videos that comforted me and sooth me. I would cry, be depressed, unenergized, etc. Watching your videos was like remedy to me. He used to help me with bills, rent, etc. and when he died, I lost EVERYTHING! I'm living in my family's house and although I appreciate me and my kids have a roof over our heads, I wish I had my own. It's not easy but it's now things are looking brighter. I know it's not the same situation since Scott is alive and all. But I had to learn to pick myself up and get it together. You'll be okay, Kisha. And it'll probably be worse before getting better but best believe you'll come out a stronger person after this. :-)

    ReplyDelete
  28. Just wanted to say sorry, and I think that you could do amazing things with your cooking skills! I was always inspired by the way you loved your family by taking care of them and especially by having a great meal on the table every night! Love and Hugs to you!

    ReplyDelete
  29. You are probably getting a lot of advice already, but maybe you could put your most important possessions in a storage locker for now for safe keeping, keep your cats, and tell the landlord you aren't leaving. It would take awhile for them to legally evict you, wouldn't it?! Then, can you file for emergency support with the court? Or emergency assistance of some kind? Support isn't forever, but the wage earner can't just leave the spouse to starve.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I always heard it is 30 days by law.

      Delete
  30. You need a lawyer. I don't know what you mean about not "being that kind of person ", but it's your right. He can't be the main bread winner and leave you with nothing. You DESERVE better. Show your kids you are worthy of better, don't just shrink away. Please!!! Hugs.

    ReplyDelete
  31. AnonymousJuly 16, 2016

    This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

    ReplyDelete
  32. AnonymousJuly 16, 2016

    So sorry, keep your head up in these difficult times.. prayers and good thoughts for a good new beginning

    ReplyDelete
  33. AnonymousJuly 16, 2016

    Every medal has two sides! I'm sure he had a good reason...

    ReplyDelete
  34. AnonymousJuly 16, 2016

    In my religion:

    1. The husbands duty is to be the breadwinner and support the wife and family. She can work, it's definitely NOT a must but the money she earns is to belong only to her and he should still give her money to run the house, to feed her and clothe her etc.
    2. He definitely cannot walk away from his family. I'm sure it's a sin in your religion too. But in ours we have a procedure to follow to ensure the divorce is valid. Once he announces his intention to divorce his wife, he is not allowed to throw her out of his house. He is to let her live in that house, feed and clothe her as usual for THREE MONTHS. That way she has time to arrange her life together, find a job, find a new home, decide what to bring and what to leave etc. at this time, if he decides within that 3 months that he wants her back or vice versa , the divorce is not valid and they stay married. But at the end of the 3 months, if none of them want to reconcile then the marriage ends and she will need to move out. If she's pregnant when he divorces her, she also has a right for him to support her financially until the baby is born. After the baby is born then the divorce would be finalized

    3. If she is in an abusive relationship, or he's missing or he refuses to divorce her, she can apply for divorce and get it approved instantly without the need for his signature or his consent. When this happens there is no need for her to stay with him for 3 months if she doesn't feel safe around him.


    I don't think it's right that you get kicked out of your home. Nor is it right for a husband to want his wife to work if she doesn't want to. it is good to be independent financially in case anything happens of course but it's not fair to blame you for not providing a second income. Especially when you are contributing to the house with your home making, budgeting, making sure the kids are looked after, making sure your husband comes home to a hot meal. Those are important contributions that make for a happy family.

    Anyway I just thought I share with you the different ways of doing things that might save women so much pain and suffering. This is a part of my religion that no one knows much of coz everyone's busy thinking we're terrorist and we mistreat women when the opposite is true. And yes this religion I've been describing is Islam.

    I really hope you won't listen to the nasty comments put above and hold your head up high. Dont let them affect how you feel and what you do. You will recover from this I promise, for with every hardship comes ease (the Quran chapter 94:6). Much love from someone who wants to see you happy.

    ReplyDelete
  35. I'm so sorry and I hope that you and your kiddos are ok...or will be ok. I'm sure this is a trying time to say the least but thank you for sharing, as always. You have a very solid community who care about you. Believe that.

    ReplyDelete
  36. This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

    ReplyDelete
  37. I am so sorry for you and your family...

    ReplyDelete
  38. well now I know why there have been no videos for a while. I had thought maybe something hugely tragic had happened (like a death) and I'm so glad it's not that. obviously a divorce is tragic but you're such a strong, interesting person, I've no doubt that you'll thrive when you have managed to come to terms with the situation.

    I would 100% rather be single than live with someone who required a huge amount of effort. at least this way, you only have to compromise with yourself. you're still young, vibrant and beautiful and now you have the chance and time to spend on yourself and really truly living life.

    I hope for the best for you, and I'll keep checking for updates as (like many have said in the comments) your videos are/were among my favourite on youtube and very therapeutic and inspiring. it would be very sad to see your channel end as a result of this so I dearly hope you're able to keep it going and continue to share your abundance of knowledge with your viewers.

    take care xx

    ReplyDelete
  39. p.s, ignore my username, it's a joke regarding something entirely different on youtube. :)

    ReplyDelete
  40. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    as usual deleting the comments that just don't fit into the fairy tale Kisha.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Go screw yourself. I read your stupid comment and found it extremely rude and hateful. This is hard enough on all of us right now. Your negative bullshit is not helping. AND THATS WHY IT GOT DELETED.

      Delete
  41. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    What is it exactly you were looking for Kisha ??? Sympathy ??? You have said alot of negative things about Scott as of late but guess that is okay. Well sounds like your YOU TUBE career is over and your in hiding so onto .... better things and better bloggers HJDI sounds good.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Everything I ever said about him was 1000000% true. And the shit you have no idea about is what I was bitching about. I am not hiding. I AM IN THE HOUSE. Youtube is NOT OVER. And I am doing ok. Not good but ok. I am surrounded by people who love me and have my best interest at heart and clearly you are not one of those people so go away.

      Delete
    2. you tell them kisha! These trolls have no life, getting a high off of bringing you down bc they have shitty lives,you will come out on top and you will have a better life then any of these no life losers!keep your head up kisha!im a loyal follower! These losers just hide behind the computer under "anonymous" bc their to scared to show who they really are!

      Delete
    3. What exactly are you looking for, anonymous? BTW, your grammar reeks.

      Delete
  42. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    Feel free to delete that as well ... lol Its how you treat your viewers anyways

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. This comment has been removed by the author.

      Delete
    2. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

      Fuck off asshole fucking bitch!!

      Delete
    3. She has always been good to me

      Delete
  43. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    Your you tubing ...hauls ... your life won't happen without Scott. You have nothing on your own K

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. The kids and I still have to eat bitch. But you are right...we won't have to buy as much. And I am pretty sure being on my own will be better than being with a dishonest disloyal man. Yea no thanks...I'll roll the dice and see what happens. I have confidence in myself that life will be ok and probably even better without him. Now go away internet troll. Bye Bye.

      Delete
  44. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

      Go fuck yourself fucking internet troll fucking cunt bitch!!!!!!!

      Delete
  45. This comment has been removed by the author.

    ReplyDelete
  46. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    Ignore the hateful comments. You getting angry and replying is exactly what they want. All they're doing is laughing at your responses. Don't give them that satisfaction. With that being said I do think you should continue with YouTube. Even if it's just to sit and talk. All the haters are betting on this negative situation to kill your YouTube channel. Prove to them it's not going to. Look at CandidMommy. In the darkest times she turned the camera on and just talked. Use it as a therapy session. Talking out loud, getting things off your chest is sometimes the best way to heal and you have the best platform to do that. Yeah there will be haters watching, waiting to post on those gossip sites but you know what? Their views still put money in your wallet. Let their hate pay your bills.

    ReplyDelete
  47. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    So so sorry Keisha. I saw it coming real the snarkie looks you were given. Leaving you in NC to load all the noice pick up the pieces and move while he was gone. Then comes to get you and waits to you settle in and the boys getting along. But girl you can do better.He was different you can tell when you would see him in video's his facial expressions like he was better than everyone. Now I am not to judge. However I keep waiting for your video's and I looked and found this. What in world why do men do this do they think that they can just leave and walk away and be rude NO!!! I have been a fan for a long while and will continue to be one. I think you are honest,caring,sweet and you got his child away from hurt and tried to make one happy blended family. No judge in their right mind will let him walk away and leave you and the kids on the street aint gonna happen. Hold on to memories and settle the hurt. You are not alone we miss you vids.we could careless about haters. Keep us posted but take time dont say things you will regret cause that is what happens say one wrong thing and its all gone. My question WHY in heavens do men think that is ok to do what he did to you? Let him snore somewhere else you got the bed,couch,or whatever you want cause you can do this don't let no person keep you down girl their is awesome people who love you for you..I am praying for you. God bless you and the torn kids and Scott I pray for you too. So sorry right at school time the poor kids. Hugs,Keisha hold the head high carry on.. Miss yah...

    ReplyDelete
  48. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

    delete ... delete .... lol. delete ... delete... your not worthy of trolling lol

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016

      Fuck off fucking asshole!!

      Delete
  49. AnonymousJuly 18, 2016

    hey Kisha. It really sucks all this is happening right now, especially as you thought you could start your life anew in Indiana. I really believe things happen for a reason. I hope this inspires you to become an independent person that can provide for themselves, and that you take this as an opportunity to learn never to completely rely on anyone else again financially. I think in this day and age that is very important. I hope you are out there looking for a job and have some places lined up. Have you invested in retirement plans or have any of your own savings anywhere? perhaps you can use that towards a deposit and first and last for a place of your own. You could also ask family and friends (that you are still in touch with, of course) to maybe lend you a little bit of money to get you back on your feet. I'm sure they would be fine with it, and you could repay them as soon as possible. Just try and organize your belongings, stick with ONE planner to sort all this out, get some references that potential landlords could call, find some money for first and last, find a place to rent - doesn't have to be big, start small and work your way up - and get a full time job. Even Wal mart would be great for now. Or an assistant chef at a kitchen or something. Anything! It is baby steps right now. But right now you are not too good for anything ( not trying to sound rude). Now is a time to just be pragmatic and just build up experience and find a place to live for now. Who knows what will happen in a year's time! You'll probably be working full time somewhere nice with benefits, have a nice place ALL YOUR OWN for you, Romeo, and the kids. Let me know if I can help in any way. Sending love and light.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. AnonymousJuly 20, 2016

      wow, the only comment on here that actually offers constructive advice and you choose to ignore it, Kisha. Shame on you. You're just too lazy to get a job, be honest.

      Delete
    2. AnonymousJuly 24, 2016

      Fuck off fucking bitch!!

      Delete
  50. AnonymousJuly 18, 2016

    If you relied on him for financial support, he can't just leave you destitute. Please try to file for emergency spousal support as soon as possible. Sending lots of good wishes your way and I hope things work out for you.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. SandravoightJuly 20, 2016

      Girl hang in there you are back and coming out and hope you know it's ok we all have something we battled and if you need to vent call I'm only in wisconsin hugs get back doing the things you love your cats..and videos show them and win for you can blog and teach 1 voice is all it takes...and you got it...

      Delete
  51. AnonymousJuly 18, 2016

    This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

    ReplyDelete
  52. AnonymousJuly 18, 2016

    I am sorry for the pain you have experienced because your husband left. May you discover your own strength and integrity in a way that you would not if he had stayed.
    I have only seen a few of your videos and read your unfinished autobiography, but I think that commingled with some immature past choices, (e.g. leaving young kids, eviction from home, drug abuse, plagiarism), you have a good sense of humor, creativity, and optimism.
    My advice: Don't dwell too long on your loss. "Be the hero of your story - not the victim (Dave Ramsey)." Then you'll have nowhere to move but up.

    ReplyDelete
  53. AnonymousJuly 18, 2016

    Miss your sweet face on YouTube. Take care of yourself.

    ReplyDelete
  54. AnonymousJuly 19, 2016

    Hello Kisha, I have been a viewer for several years but I have never commented. I pray you find the strength to pull through this hard time. I have been dumped before after depending on someone to pay the bills after they begged me to quit my job to take care of them full time. I just wanted to recommend a program to you that really helped me find a good job after not working for a long time. Although I probably sound like a salesman I really do not make money on suggesting this as they do not pay for referrals. I used www.careerhmo.com to help me find the best job for my personality and background. It is a huge amount of info for just $19 a month. She teaches how to do personality tests to know what jobs to look for, how to interview, how to negotiate and a lot of other things I never would have thought of on my own. If looking for a job is something you need to do now (or soon) I hope you check this out (when you get your head clear enough to I know how the pain and shock has to work out of your system). They give away a free week trial to see if you like it. They have live tutorials where you can ask questions daily. It helped me with my self esteem and helped me make more money than I thought I would being out of the work force for so long. I hope this helps you. There is a lesson in this situation and you will get through the pain and get to the wisdom part of it. You will be happier than you ever have before after this storm clears.

    ReplyDelete
  55. You, my friend, brighten my day with your videos. Always look forward to them. Why? I feel you're a down to earth person, honest, and someone I can relate to. Go slow sweetie. Dont make quick decisions. Years ago, my husband had a summer affair with my sister. I was devistated but quickly told him that if he left with her, he'd not see his daughter again. Really? I never would have done that and in retrospect should have let the door hit him in the ass. Needless to say, i spent the next 15 years trying to make things work. Too scared to walk out, scared of the unknown. Finally i put my big girl panties on and moved out. Talk about regrets..just that i should have done it 15 years earlier. I wish i could give you the biggest hug. There really is light at the end of the tunnel. I know, tmi but it just typed out. :)

    ReplyDelete
  56. AnonymousJuly 20, 2016

    So the EPO was filed against you? Interesting....

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Wai.. Really? I thought she filed it.

      Delete
  57. I have never commented on a video or your blog before. I am just so sad and shocked by your situation. I just love you, your videos, your pets and your kids. I really just wish you strength in this horrible time. If you can keep us posted...and let us know what, if anything, we can to help. Julie

    ReplyDelete
  58. I'm praying for you. I'm seeing that the ability to vlog and or blog appears to be healing for those of you that do it and your fans are able to support you as well. Thank you for involving us in your healing process. We are invested in your life as well. Together we grieve and heal in support of you. Love you girlie. You got this.

    ReplyDelete
  59. Kisha, I have never commented before. I'm so sorry you are going through this. Prayers to you and your family. Try to keep your beautiful cats. They will help you through it. God bless.

    ReplyDelete
  60. Prayers for you

    ReplyDelete

Thank you so much for your comment. I love hearing from you! It takes me a minute to moderate the comments so it should show up shortly.

Custom Post Signature

Custom Post  Signature