Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Tuesday Truths





 - Yesterday was really long and hard at work. When the shift is over, I just want to run right out of there. However, yesterday it took longer to get out of there and it totally sucked.

- I am not sure why the men in my life all love Ancient Aliens. I admit, sometimes it's interesting but a lot of nights, it totally puts me to sleep!

- The cooler mornings are interesting. I am up and out super early and I do really enjoy being cold. Somehow, Someway, I just have to figure out how to deal with it.

- I have been loving all the new friends I have been making. It's strange if you would have told me this would be my life a year ago, I would have thought you were crazy. But I think I am exactly where I need to be and around who I need to be around in this exact moment.

- I really miss the cats and dog. I don't think a new puppy will change that either. But when I move, I am for sure getting a dog. I feel lost without one and it's something/a goal that I am looking forward to accomplishing.

- Internet still sucks. But it doesn't really matter. I am so tired at the end of the day, I just don't feel like making videos. Hopefully I can make a few in the same day to make it easier. I just need to get to that point. Sorry.  I have reviews I need to get working on. I have so many videos in my brain. I just need a little more space....a most importantly time.

- I have a ton of voicemails to check. Yep... not something I do very often. Might want to text instead friends and family.

- I haven't been eating all that healthy but I sure have been losing weight. I have been getting in over 5 miles a day and it's paying off in how my clothes feel. I guess a divorce and new job is bound to help any woman lose weight. And I don't so much mind!

- My fitbit is still saving my life. I looooove it. I love all the information it gives me and I love the silent alarms that wake me each morning. Follow Along: Kisha Jaggers. And for those of you who have asked. Yes I wear it all the time and charge it nightly when I am in the shower.

- Ex Husband News → still a loser. Not understanding how the divorce worked out. He is suppose to pay $500 on the 1st & 15th. And this is too hard for him. Hes not making the kind of money he use to make ( idiot should and can go back into the car business anytime he wants. ), I'm a bitch, he only makes 490 a week....yada yada yada. Supposedly the stolen iphone he took from me is now off. ( Bullshit ) and he hates me. All just EXCUSES. I guess we just have to go back to court and he can cry to the judge all while paying my attorney fees. What an asshole. Sister in law still a know it all who actually doesn't know what the hell she is ever talking about. * Nothing new there.

- Russell did laundry today and I couldn't have been more grateful. I bitched, moaned and groaned most of the evening. Body hurt, tired and grumpy. Thankfully he was able to put a smile on my face along with helping out with a lot of the things that needed done around here. I swear he really has been a big help, comfort and love since all this has happened.

- I am in the middle of the woods and my worst fear right now is hitting a deer in the mornings...and evenings. I see them all the time. Makes me nervous as hell.

- I am so proud of my kids. I don't think I have been the best mom but somehow in despite of me, they are amazing. I am blessed because of them and I don't take it for granted at all.

- The bed in this camper is seriously one of the softest beds I have ever slept on. Its like a big soft feather bed that I snuggle right down in. Looking forward to my next day off when I can stay in it a little longer. But I never sleep in that late anymore and that sucks!

- The coffee this morning smells amazing. Time for another cup! I think I have an addiction to coffee at this point. Those little folgers tea bags work great for us and they actually make amazing cups of coffee.

- Gabby is in desperate need of a bath. A task I don't really want to do after a long day at work but I think it might just be happening later this evening. Or not... but sometime soon.

- Life is still a bit challenging for me. I am still settling into a life I was not expecting. I wish I would have been more prepared. For me, I just didn't plan on things ending. I really didn't. Do any of us really go into or stay in a relationship that we are sure it's going to end? No I don't think so. But it would have been smarter to have planned out some security for myself. Gotta learn from my mistakes for sure. I am not scared any longer. That's been a blessing on it's own. I am smiling more. Feeling more confident as I move through each day. I am allowed to have hard days....sad days....but I am just not allowed to give up.

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Thank you guys for stopping by. Feel free to let me know how your day is going....have a great day!  See ya soon. xx

2 comments:

  1. God bless you all you are in our prayers. Miss you on YouTube. Atleast you could get a job and a divorce fast and a place for the kids immediately and I am sure it hurts you both but they have to be stable and you are doing good. Be safe and when your back on YouTube we who enjoyed your video's will be their those who did not can go on with Scott lol.. Glad Russell is helping. Cant wait for a new updating video of what a real divorce gone wrong fast was like it happened so fast that is what is like ok yah know. Hugs. Glad to see your updates.

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  2. Not to upset u but ur bitch in law has one long very insulting post on her FB that I happened to come across by seeing her name pop up in my screen out of nowhere n it was very insulting n humiliating. Stay far away from her. Scott must b missing u for her to be like that...

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