Wednesday, September 28, 2016

DITL Vlog: Trying to get back into the swing of things!

Hello friends! I hope you are having a great evening. I had big plans to put up a week in review but here we's getting on into the late evening and I am just plain tired. I wasn't even sure I would be here at all talking to you guys tonight. Let me just say, I went in today....thinking I had to work and it was my day off but they needed me anyway so I stayed. It rained most of the day and spending it in bed would have been so much nicer. Guess that's what I get for not reading the schedule right. #kishaisadumbass. :)

Anyway, this past week I have been keeping to schedule with work and home. Doing pretty good at moving through the days without many problems or concerns. I feel like I am finally settling into life a little more and adjusting to everything that has happened. There is so much I really want to talk to you about. Many of you have had questions about this new transition. It hasn't been as easy as some of you might think but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be either. I guess deep inside I knew that life would get better when the big problem was removed. And he has been removed as well as the stress, worry, mistrust and violence. My own children and family seem to think a weight has been lifted from me. I would think they would know. I am a little numb to all of it. I am not even sure why but I truly am. I guess the universe has a funny way of giving you what you need....not necessarily what you want. 

I am trying to get back on some kind of schedule. I need to record a lot of videos on my days off and just upload over the week. Eventually I will get it all figured out! I wanted to share a new vlog. I guess it's not really a week in review  or day in the life vlog because it was over the course of a couple weeks. I just thought I would share the footage I had and move on from there. Hope you enjoy! 

I am going to relax the night away. Hopefully snuggle up in bed and fall asleep to the sound of the rain and wind. It's actually getting cooler here especially in the mornings. I'm not sure how I am going to cope with winter but I guess I will just have to suck it up and make the most of it! I hope your week is going well. Thanks so much for stopping by! I'll be back soon. xx
Friday, September 23, 2016

Friday Letters ♥

Hello friends! I hope you are having a great friday. Since I am doing my best to get back with it...I thought another edition of Friday letters would be fun. Hope you enjoy! 

Dear God, I have had a lot of questions for you since my divorce and the death of my grandmother. I'm not mad but I wish you wouldn't have taken her from me. I understand the man. I asked for help getting away from him but I wish I still had my grandmother here. I hope she is singing with the angles now. Please hear my prayers and help put forgiveness in my heart for those who have and continue to do harm to me. 

Dear Brittany, Jackson, & Jordan, You are the best things that have ever came from me. Each of you are better than me and I am so privileged to that you call me mom. I am so proud of you. 

Dear Gabby, I am sorry you seem to miss your friends/family. I miss them too. I promise to change it as soon as we get moved. 

Dear Mom, I am so proud of you for getting through everything with grandma. I can't imagine that day coming for Laci and I. I would be soooooo lost without you. I love you mom. 

Dear Brangelina, Talk about shocking. Oddly enough I don't feel so bad about my divorce now. If you two big money Hollywood actors with a tribe of kids cant make it work.....who were we? All hope is lost.

Dear Laura, I hope you know that you are someone I truly adore. Remember everything I said when I was sitting in your kitchen last night. I really do think it could be the answer to a lot of our problems. I love you and we can figure out things together. You are not alone.....and never will be. 

Dear Camper, I am very thankful for a place to call my own for the time being. You have kept me warm and helped keep me safe while I have tried to deal with a broken heart, a new job, a new way of life and I appreciate it. But I am ready to move. Hopefully we will only be together a little bit longer. But I will miss the bed!!! The bed is the most comfortable bed I have ever slept in. Strange but true! And guess what? No work today means....time to clean you up. 

Dear Shanna, Thank you best friend for putting up with me. I love you. 

Dear Cherokee Park, I love you. I love you. I love you. I forgot how much I truly adore the space you take up and share with the with the community. I keep walking, searching and discovering new places that capture my mind, heart and soul. Who knew a park could do so much. 

Dear BGT8IRD, I am doing my best to not hate you. But really it's too late. YOU are one of the worst people on the planet and now I understand why that ex of mine is so screwed up. I wish nothing but the worst for you however, I am trying to get past those feelings so I will just pray for you. 

Dear Hair, I am doing my best to grow you out but you are getting on my nerves so badly! You also need dyed. Yep...thanks grey hairs! 

Dear Dad, I guess from the other side you can see everything that has happened. I wish you were here. I wish I could talk to you and actually hear your words back. I hope you are proud of me for not letting a man destroy me. It took a lot of previous lessons...and talks from you. I am stronger than I know and I still have those words from you flowing through my head. I love you and I will forever. 

Dear Blog, I have missed you so much. It feels amazing to be back where I belong. 

Dear Laci, I was very happy that you came up here this week. It was nice seeing you and I know mom appreciated it. I know you were not around many people up here but they are your family and they love you. I'll call soon. 

Dear Russell, Thank you for being here in such a crazy time. You know I love you. 

Dear Waffle House, I will see you soon but I think our time is about over. I am so grateful for the time and support you have given me. But better things are ahead.....and I need more money. I think I will miss my friends more than anything else. This is probably our last week together. :(  I am scared of a new job.....but I have to face those fears and get some real money made. 

Dear Mini Cooper, I guess we are not meant to be together forever. Another change in the air. It will feel good to move and not worry anymore. 

Dear Romeo, I miss you kitty cat. I truly do. I am sorry you were not the one who came with me. I thought I would take the one who needed me the most. Not the one I needed the most. My heart breaks everytime I wake up and don't see your cute face! 

Dear Body, I guess a divorce is doing you well. I have lost almost 12 pounds. With the new job in the future, I bet I loose much more. But could you please sleep better and stop with the hip and ankle hurting so much. 

Dear Kimmy, I am so thankful for all the love and support you have shown. I love you like a sister. And I will forever be grateful for everything you have done for me. 

Dear Bakery, Relying on Trina to tell you the truth is about as stupid as it gets. That's why I feel compelled to come on and tell you the truth. Get it right otherwise you will just look like dumbasses. 

Dear Buddy ( But NOT Joseph ), I should have said this years ago....but I am done. Like seriously done. Your mother loved you so much. You should have been there and you seriously cost yourself some family with your antics the last few days. It wasn't about you. It was about honoring your mother for 2 days. Do you think it was easy for any of us? Do you think we really wanted to be there? It hurt terribly but it was about honoring her life. People have made excuses for you for your entire life. There is nothing you can say that can fix this. You should be ashamed of yourself. Goodbye and Good Riddance. 

Dear Catherine, I'm sorry. I couldn't love him enough clearly. Our family became disposable to him. I thought I was a good wife. Guess not. It's just a title either of us held well. Sorry for what I said about Trina but sometimes she is just too much for any one person. I miss you and I will always love you.

Dear Phone, I broke you. Dropped you in water. Lost you.....and you are still hanging on. Please hang on a little longer and I will let you retire soon! 

Dear EXHusband, You are one of the biggest disappointments in my life. But you didn't destroy me. 

Dear Entire Martin Family, You guys really are some of the most loyal loving family a girl could ask for. Coming together for grandma, I saw love and kindness. I saw sadness. I am sorry for what my father's side of the family said and done to you guys. You are the loyal ones and I love you so much. I really do. You have lifted me up and cared for me in one of the hardest times of my life. You are my family. 

Dear Blog/Youtube Friends, Thank you guys for sticking around and for being so understanding. Things have really changed. I still have a lot that I need to get done/updated but I feel good about being here again talking with all of you. I love you guys.  See ya soon. xx
Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Wednesday Hodgepodge

It's been a loooong while since I participated in the Wednesday Hodgepodge. Since I am finally getting back with blogging/making videos, I thought today we would answer some fun questions with the rest of the ladies. :) Hope you enjoy!

1. Thursday (September 22) is the first official day of autumn in this part of the will you welcome the season? I know some of you have been celebrating way too early, but it's official now so permission granted. House Beautiful recently listed ten ways to make your home smell like fall (you can read the list here) What's a scent you love this time of year and how will you add it to your home? 

I love fall. I always have. However, I am still not use to the colder temperatures. We are welcoming the season with heat in the mornings, hot coffee, cozy sweaters and long beautiful hikes in the vivid forest. I love all kinds of different fall scents however cinnamon is normally a bit too strong for me. A couple of years ago I found this candle in Warm Cashmere Sweater and fell in love.

It's the perfect fall scent without being too overpowerful. And who doesn't love candles! I plan on buying a few more and letting the scent linger through the house. 

2. Apple pie or pumpkin pie? Apple cake or pumpkin bread? Warm apple cider or a pumpkin spice latte?

All apple. I am not a huge pumpkin fan but my boyfriend is. So this year I suspect that we will be having both!

3. Do you suffer from what is sometimes referred to as an afternoon slump? What helps ward it off before it hits and/or tell us what helps you shake it off once it's here?

Absolutely. When I can I try to take a quick cat nap but most of the time coffee is helpful. And even during those sleepy moments, I just get moving....putting one foot in front of the other until I get my blood circulating and energy levels up.

4. Ladies-how have your friendships with women inspired you or made you a better person? For the men here today- how have your friendships with men inspired you or made you a better person?

I don't trust a lot of women. However, the strong women in my life have really helped level me out and have taught me that I can trust and depend on them. We have amazing women in our family and each one of them have taught me so many life lessons. They have taught me to not take life so serious. That change does happen and instead of fighting it....embrace it and learn from it. I am always amazed at their suggestions, love and support.

5. Are you a people pleaser? If you said yes, do you think that's a good or bad thing? If you said no, do you wish you were more of a people pleaser? 

I use to be but not so much anymore. Really the only true person you can make happy is yourself.

6. The seasons are a-changin'...share a favorite song relating in some way to change (not necessarily seasonal change, it could be change of any kind).

7. What do you wish would never change?

Its a little late for that question because so much has changed regardless of what I wanted. But life is all about changes. I am still figuring that out but even the hard changes happen for a reason. At this point my life is different...better and for me the one that I hope and pray never changes is the love from my kids. All else can change how it needs to change.

8.  Insert your own random thought here. 

Hello hodgepodgers. It's been a while since I have participated in this linkup. I have really missed you guys. And I have been through a lot of changes including a divorce and moving. Those are some pretty big changes. I tried to fight it at first but life has a way of giving you what you need rather you want it or not. And at this point, I am much happier. I am more independent and I am not as scared any longer. I am starting to blog and make videos again and find my own way in this big world. And I am not alone like I was scared I would be. I have amazing friends and family that have helped me every step of the way.

Today is going to be one of the hardest days ever. In a matter of hours we are laying my grandmother to rest. Another change for our family. A heartbreaking change to say the least. September has been hard but I am trusting God to get our family through it. I am trusting God to take care of a lady who meant so much to me and our family. She will be missed so much.

Thank you guys for stopping by. I really am trying to get back to normal on here. This is my home away from home and I have really missed being here....talking to you guys...sharing my thoughts. It's nice to be back. Have a wonderful Wednesday. ♥
Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Growth & Change

Hi everyone. It's been a long while since we were together. It's been almost a month and a half since I have been here on this blog. So much has happened. So much has changed. First off there are a few updates on my youtube channel plus a little food haul that you can check out if you haven't already. Subscribe while you are there as well! ;)

I don't really even know where to start. At this point I am fully divorced. It certainly happened fast. It wasn't as painful as I thought it would be. I think anger carried me through that process. I still think that he single handedly destroyed our family without a second thought. I found out that I am stronger than I thought I was. I am doing just fine. And I am actually happier without all the drama and problems that came with being married to him. I really don't want him, my divorce, our past and or present issues to be in the forefront of everything. Its been over a month since I have opened this laptop. I have thought a hundred times how I wanted to handle my the social media. Well, I love this blog. I always have. Unlike my ex husband is has never left or hurt me. It's been a place of peace and pleasure both. I am not giving it up. I thought I would remove everything with him in but thinking about it now, its more of a public service to any woman that happens to google him. Maybe it will help/save someone else from the pain I have went through.

Through the pain, there has been a few shining lights helping lead the way for me. My best friend Shanna, my first love, Russell, my kids, my cousins, Laura, my mom have all been there for me. They have helped me figure out so many things. Life hasn't been all gloomy and sad because of them. They all have been amazing. But as I have been trying to figure out this new transition, my grandmother's health went down super fast and we lost her just a couple days ago. I honestly thought she might get better. Tomorrow is the viewing and while it will probably be one of the hardest days of my life I plan on standing strong and honoring her life. Our family will miss her so much. She was one of my best friends. We use to talk 4 or 5 times a day until she got sick. Then it all changed. But she is one of the reasons I came home as well. I just thought we would all have more time with her. Its truly heart breaking.

So a divorce and a death for me this month. While laying in bed crying seems like a reasonable thing to do, life isn't allowing that. I have so much going on. There is so much I want to share with you. Thank you to everyone that has stuck by me and not given up. Things are going in a new direction and I am excited about the future. I truly am. I haven't acted the best. I am upset by the constant bullshit of my sister in law. Not even Scott. But I think it reflects on who she is. I need to work on myself. Ask forgiveness for the mean thoughts and words I have spoken against that family and pray for them. I am done giving them any kind of power over me. Life is so much better; that my focus needs to be only moving forward. I have taken lots of deep breaths, trying to center myself and see things in a different way. I am angry at the entire planned out act of betrayal from Scott and her included. And that anger has gotten me pretty far in this divorce process. But now it's time to climb the mountain instead of carry the mountain. I need to let it all go and focus on all the good still in my life. All the blessings that have been sent my way. All the love given to me from family and friends.

As for youtube, I am keeping all the videos up and I hope to get back on schedule sometime in the very near future. I don't know exactly what direction it will go in but I think it will just be a hodgepodge of videos from vlogs, hauls, reviews, planner videos... just random stuff that I do.

I have a bunch of things coming up....

:: Get through Grandma's Service these next few days.
:: Find an apartment. I am currently living out in the country in a large RV. Grateful but ready to find a little apartment or house.
:: Apply for other jobs in area. Want to find a better job with better insurance.
:: Bath Gabby
:: Start working on reviews. Need to take lots of photos and just do it.
:: Clean up files on this laptop.
:: Take kids on a picnic sometime over the weekend.
:: Call about SUV I'm interested in. Who knows...I might just be able to make it happen. But I also have to take a drivers test to get my license back.
:: Make a video really soon and get it uploaded. I think it will just be another update kind of video. However, I also want to film a planner update soon too.
:: Buy some kind of plant for the RV. It needs some plants around here.
:: Continue evening walks with Russell. They are great for clearing the mind and relaxing.
:: Order new fitbit charger. I have no idea where mine went...and I am going crazy without it. All those steps NOT COUNTED. Grrrrrrrrrrr!
:: Buy new phone. I dropped and shattered my phone. Its working but barely. This time I will get the case that will help protect it. Lesson learned.
:: Drink more water. Something I suck at.
:: Finally upload photos from all phones to laptop. Start working on a vlog.
:: Get to PO Box and check mail.
:: Do a load of laundry...towels.
:: Flat iron hair tonight so it's easier in the morning.

I know this post has been long. There are a ton of questions I know you guys want answered. I will start working on a blog post answering the more basic ones and then maybe do a video later. Thankyou guys for coming back...being patient with me. Your support has meant so much. There have been so many emails, comments, messages that I will never be able to respond to. I have really tried but at this point we are starting fresh. I don't want to feel overwhelmed. So even with all the hard things going on this September, we are moving forward. There is no other way. I am growing everyday from all these experiences. Even the hardest of times are teaching me the strongest lessons. Life is beautiful. I need to start honoring it more. And getting rid of the negative is a good start. I love new beginnings....fresh weeks. So here I go and I hope you come with me.I love you guys. Thanks for stopping by. I promise to see you soon. xx
Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Helloooooooo! Catching up + Video(s)

Hello friends! I know it's been a while. So much has been going on and I just haven't had the time or even the internet to give you guys updates. So here I am work. It's slow and I have the laptop open waiting on customers to come have dinner. :)

I am finally moved out of the house. It's been a long time coming. Scott kept trying to tell me that I was going to be evicted...those papers never arrived. But I still couldn't manage the bills there and I just didn't want to be in that house anymore anyway. I am moved out to the country where nature has been helping heal me. And when I say that... I don't mean I am really broken because I am not. But divorce is never easy. I am thankful he is gone. I am thankful for a fresh start. I am thankful for old and new friends. I am thankful for family. But it's still been hard at times. Giving up the animals, not being with the kids, the lies he tells is hard. But I am also thankful that I haven't been alone in this new single life journey. I have had someone very special to me around. It's a rebound relationship? I think not. I have loved him since we were just kids riding bikes. I think we have more in common that not. He feels like home to me in every way. Some of you have expressed that you didn't like it but I am 40 years old and no one decides who is in my bed. It feels right. It just does and I am not hiding it or making excuses for it. 

We have done so much together already. He loves the woods as much as I do so we are hiking a watching...laughing. We have known each other for so long but it's like getting reacquainted with a old friend. I laugh more because of him. I smile more because of him....and I try to listen to what he says a little more than what I normally would do. It's a little bit different but I trust him and I trust what he says to me. He's the opposite of Scott...he's quiet and soft spoken. He's not about arguing or confrontation. He's gentle. And he does a lot of stuff that I am not use shopping with me. Do you have any idea how often I begged Scott to go shopping? It's just different. A better kind of different. :) He also helps with making dinner and I absolutely find him so sexy in the kitchen. But still things are going slow and we are just starting to really spend a lot of time together. 

The kids are doing great. It's been hard not being with them day after day but they both understand that right now I have a lot on my plate. They do too with school back in. Brittany has cheer and Jackson has soccer. It's just a super busy time of year. I am slowly starting to get a new rhythm to my life. Soon I will be back at it with the videos and blog post. However, having a camera in my face and everyone else's is not exactly what I want to be doing. I love sharing with you guys but until I am truly on my feet, with my schedule really figured out.....I have to slow down. I have to focus on so much right now. I ended up leaving a lot of stuff at the house. Old planners. Photos. I didn't have a ton of help to move it. I didn't want to pay for storage and I just thought it was better to let Scott have all that stuff. I can start over. All I need is a bed and tv to start out with...and work on everything else as I go. It's just wasn't worth it to me. I didn't want to see the stuff we used when we were together. I am not in a good place with Scott. I think he is the lowest of the low. And even though I am happy he is gone....that does not excuse any of his behavior. But it wouldn't be Scott if there wasn't some kind of drama. It's to be expected. 

I have been pretty behind with this blog. Since the last time we have spoke, I put up a couple new they are in case you missed them. ↓

With both of those videos and this blog post, you should be pretty well caught up. I am still trying to get adjusted to this new way of life....that's for sure! But I wake up happy in the mornings. I wake up with a sense of purpose. I know I have a long way to go...but I am moving forward. I am moving forward with amazing kids, a sexy old friend who I have found so much comfort in and a new life. I am going to continue to trust that God has a plan for me. Trust that I can actually do this. Trust in a person who I have always loved and missed. Trust that my kids will be ok. Because I am so blessed with family and friends who really love me. That's what matters. With both their and YOUR love and support, I have been lifted up. You guys mean the world to me and I love you all. Truly. I wish I could get back to all your comments and emails but that's just not possible at this moment. I do read each one and I can't express how much they mean to me. Soon I will be recording a new question and answer video because there are so many questions. Feel free to leave your questions on any video or this blog post....and I will have an instagram photo in a few days that you can also leave your questions on!

Have a beautiful and blessed night. I'll talk to you soon!  xx

Monday, July 25, 2016

Tuesday Talks & Truths

Hello friends. I hope you are getting along well with your's another edition of Tuesday Truths. Hope you enjoy. 

I seriously hurt my ankle. I am walking on it so I doubt its broke but standing up for hours on end yesterday was not easy. But I did it and I am still alive. If it gets much worse I might go to the ER or something but so far, I am doing ok...not great but ok. 

My soon to be ex is back at throwing me in jail for God knows what. He's the reason I have hated my life for years. I wish he would just permanently go away. Thank you God for not giving us any children together. I have no idea what is wrong with him. No morals. No soul. Just plain evil. And now I understand why all his ex's hate him. It's easy to do.

I have been getting in a ton of steps according to my fitbit. I really hope with this divorce, not eating as much, working...and hopefully working out soon will help the pounds fall off. I can't do anything right now with my messed up ankle but I am going to sink in sometime just for me and my health. 

The kids start school in just a couple days. It's insane how early they go back here. Brittany and Jackson are both at Arts right now. Heartbreaking but true. Another reason I am so disgusted by the  man who just left my life. But we will be fine. He's not that powerful but it's hurts that she is not here. However, the kids are amazing and doing great. 

Many of you have asked how Cooper is doing. Honestly, I have no idea. It's painful to think about so once I am in the right position, I will a new puppy. I am Cooper is fine. And if he's's not my issue any longer. Thank you for all your doggy l♥ve. 

The weather here has been so hot. I mean seriously hot here. I have been doing a lot of hiking and enjoying nature but it about killed me. I was a sweaty mess and had to take a cool shower as soon as I got back to the house. I think it is suppose to cool down soon so all I need is for my ankle to get better and I will be back at it! 

I am trying to take the high road here lately. I want this marriage over and behind me. I think games are being played because my ex is hurt which is confusing to me. He wanted this. This was his choice and now that he rolled the dice the game isn't ending as he expected. That's ok. He will find his own way and I am going to go my way. And honest to God I have fought with this man for way to many years. I just want it over. He can be cruel. Just like Michelle Obama said last night... he goes low, I am going to go high. He's a terrible role model to his kids, to his family. I hope he gets help before it's too late. Isn't it true that crazy people don't know they are crazy? I think that might be what we are dealing with. I just need to go on and keep being happy. It's odd but it's so true. 

I am slowly getting back to the recording videos. It's not easy to get on camera when I am dealing with so much but all your comments on this video have been so eye opening. YOU saw a change that not even I knew. Many of you have said that I seem so much happier. Thank you. I am! I'll record a video soon with a new update. 

My soon to be ex sister in law is acting a fool on her facebook and blog. I am sure her 5 followers will really care. God...some people just don't know when to shut the hell up. I think the entire family needs duct tape around their mouths. 

I took the most amazing long back last night. It was so relaxing. I have been doing so good waking up early. I sleep better now and I really truly appreciate that. I have been springing out of the bed happy each morning and ready to face the day. No one can really hurt me. The worst has already been done and everything else can be fixed. 

I want to take a vacation. Maybe some camping trips on the weekends but I think I am going to save for Hawaii. I want a post divorce trip to a beautiful exotic place. It's a new goal. Maybe in 6 months or so. Never know. :) I also think Jekyll
Island in Georgia would be a nice little trip as well.

I have really been enjoying a lot of my older friends since getting home. This is exactly where I need to be and I am so grateful for it. When going through something like this, you find out who really is loving, loyal and caring...and who's not. 

I plan on checking the PO Box today sometime. Thank you in advance for anything you sent. So many of you asked for it and from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Your cards and letters have been so amazing. I am responding right back so feel free to use it anytime. 

Also I have a ton of messages and comments that I still need to respond to. I have less time now and there are just so many. Sooooooo......I am just doing the best I can with it. I read everything. Thank you for taking the time to comment on any of my social network platforms. I love you guys. You have given me great advice and I will forever treasure it. 

I have been talking to my first son's father. So many of you had questions about him. We met when we were still riding bikes and separated when I was 23. I wanted to get married and he was no near that point at that time. We are basically best friends. I kinda want more but right now we are just going to take things slow so I can finish up this last married life chapter. I respect him. I love him. And he makes me laugh. I am glad so many of you liked him and said he was a better fit for me. I think so too. I should thank my ex for running out. Probably the best thing he has ever done for me. And right now the universe has brought back an old love in my life. I am excited about the future. :)

My best friend has been put through hell with my ex calling and texting her all the time. She is such a good person. I would be lost without her. She is always looking out for me. 

The Democratic National Convention was inspiring last night. Ha! No more fucking republicans in my bed. No way. I would rather slit my own throat first. Another bonus to getting divorced! 

I think I am letting Romeo go. Yea. It's probably the best thing. I am not 1000% sure yet but it's in my mind right now. Where I am going, it's probably not best for him. I might be wrong. I just have to put some thought and prayer into it. I love that cat like no other but I don't really see a way around it. I plan on keeping Gabby no matter what. I am tearing up right now. I just don't know. 

My mom is doing great. She is making a ton of money training dogs of all things. She's great at it and it got me thinking. I might just have to follow her lead up here. We'll see. I am so proud of her. Someone just flew her to Florida for a weeks worth of training of their puppy and are paying her over 1k. OVER. Good job mom! 

I have a lot to do in the coming days. I will do my best to check in. Be sure to find me on instagram and follow along for more photos and updates! xx

Sunday, July 24, 2016

DITL VLOG:Getting Back on my Feet + More

Hello friends! I hope you are getting along great with your night/morning. I am back today sharing a couple new video with you. This first one is the most recent day in the life vlog that just went live yesterday evening on youtube. I have really missed you guys and I thought one of the best things I could do for myself is get back to normal in every way as quickly as possible. 

It's been easier than expected getting through this. I thought it would be hard but each day life gets easier and better. I don't care if I lost every single possession.....I am still happier without my soon to be ex. Incase you don't know why he is going to soon be my ex, I also posted this video sharing my thoughts on everything regarding the divorce. 

Thank you guys for being so loving and supportive. I don't know what I do without you. I will be continuing to make videos and hopefully get back to a routine soon. Thanks so much for stopping by. I hope you have a beautiful and blessed week. xx

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